Sunday, March 30, 2014

A journalist's experience about the MH370.

The MH370 mystery has taken a lot of our time, attention and sleep.

It has been 23 days since it's gone missing, and I haven't had any peaceful sleep since.

Always on standby, always feel scared to have a shut eye in case I will miss any news about the incident, and always "tidur-tidur ayam".

Doesn't matter if it is during my off days, or if I am on leave, my neon green handphone will always be by my side.

There are reporters who were called back from their off days, and had been working for 12 days straight.

Craziness, huh?

As for my own experience, I had to spent more than 10 hours at the airport. From 8am - 10pm..standby if there are any family members at the airport.

Always alert of any movement of our surroundings.

Spent a lot of money for our meal. Airport food are not cheap.

The next time I was assigned there, I had to drop by at 7-11 to buy light snacks and drinks, just to save money. No proper meal, coz I think it is ridiculous to spend RM16 for a simple nasi ayam rendang.

Then, I was assigned to Everly Hotel, Putrajaya..where all of the family members stayed there.

Again, had to be there from early morning til night. Although Alamanda shopping mall is just next door, but I am so afraid to leave the hotel, in case there are any arrivals from any important people.

So yup, no meal too. Thankfully, one of our ministers dropped by to visit the family members and brought food and mineral water for the media. God bless you, Datuk Seri.

Then, the daily press conference from Acting Transport Minister DS Hishammuddin Hussein, Department of Civil Aviation and MAS, was transferred from Sama-Sama Hotel in Sepang to PWTC.

Had to spent a lot of my time there as well.

During this crucial time, good relationship between the media people is crucial. Same goes to our relationship with the secretariat and establishing good contacts with everyone, just for the sake of our story.

It has been a hectic 23 days, and counting.

Had fever the other day, but I chose to ignore it and work, so it goes away. But now, I have the chills again and sore throat. Oh God, no fever please. Not now. I need my energy, and I need to be in my best condition. Please, ya Allah.

BUT, what I and the rest of the media people are going through right now is just a small thing, as compared to the pain and sadness felt by the family members of the passengers and crew affected.

I do not know anyone on that plane, but it is someone else's loved ones, and it breaks my heart every single time I see them cry.

If only I could channel my strength to them, I would. Take my shoulder, I am giving it to you to cry on it.

I feel useless because I am unable to help them.

But I do believe, that what I am doing right now, as a media, is my own way of helping them. By providing real news and updates that they could rely on and trust.

I am sacrificing my time and giving my all for this job, only for one purpose. For the family members and their friends who are suffering right now. I hope what I am doing, what I am providing, will help them. Even if it is not much, just for a little is enough.

I do not appreciate those sitting at the comfort of their homes, spreading lies and baseless speculations. When those who have the media card, who are really certified to become a journalist are working our ass off to provide news and always hoping and praying for good news so that we could tell them the good news and it would ease the burden of their family members and friends.

The international media, they have their own agenda. I lost my respect to them. I used to idolise them. I used to really want to work there someday, because I thought it would be a good portfolio for me in this field, to make my name well known as a true journalist.

But after witnessing their way of working, who report based on speculations and "hear say" and sources who only God knows if they are from a legit source about MY country, about these innocent people, I do not trust them anymore.

They have crushed my heart, and my dreams to move forward in this industry. I will stay with the local media as long as I could, as long as I know that they are giving real news from a credible source.

The international media, they do not practice real journalism. They only practice sensational journalism. And shame on them.

To the family members and friends of those on board, not a day goes by without praying for your loved ones and pray that you will always be given the strength to face this situation, and to always be strong and be prepared for any findings revealed.

My heart goes out to each and every single one of you, and of course to those involved in the SAR operation as well.

To humanity.

Friday, February 7, 2014

Tomato's Birthday

6 February 2014. 
My precious baby nephew, Ariff Zameer, turned TWO!
He is my 10th anak buah, and we love him very much.
He is our pride and joy, very cheeky boy, always the centre of our attention and the cause of our endless laughter.

I pray only the best for you.
May you grow up as an obedient son and will excel in your studies and be a successful man in the future.
His sweet smile while cutting the minion cake :)
Who doesn't love minions, huh?
With my 3 sisters & the birthday boy!
Much love!

Hey ho, let's go!

Ya Allah, it's February already.

Time, you are moving too fast! When I think I am still not over the fact that it is no longer 2013, we are already bidding farewell to January.


Next thing I know, it's already December. And it will be my birthday again! And I am a year older again! And I'll be posting "I don't know about you, but I'm feeling TWENTY TWO!!" again on my Facebook status. Haha.

And I'll be receiving comments like, "It's not good to live in denial, Sarah." again.


I think I've wasted a lot of time with useless stuff so far.
Thinking and worrying about unnecessary things.

Should embrace whatever it is in front of me, and live life to the fullest!

Friday, January 31, 2014

(friend) + ship has sailed.

I believe in equality.

I believe that I deserve to be treated nicely if I have treated that other person nicely.

I believe that life is too short to keep on trying on something or someone who does not appreciate it.
So it is better if I just, give up. And focus on some other things or people that are worth my time & truly appreciates my existence.

I am turning 27 years old and it is time to grow up.
Time to make good choices that could give an impact (of course, positively) to your life.

Time to filter negative things and move on.

I appreciate my years and years of friendships and relationship.
Throughout the years, I can see who that I can consider as a true friend and also those that are not.

Although it is such a shame for all of the years wasted, but it's okay, at least I know that I've learned something from this life.
And appreciate my true friends more.

I refuse to be treated like a doormat.
I am worth more than that.
Our friendship should worth more than that.

If this is how you treated your friends, then I do not want to be your friend anymore.
I have other friends, who in a short period of time, have shown me that they actually care. And are more than willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on, a huge hug to give me strength, to carry me when I'm weak and provide endless positive words and support. And of course, to share my laughter too.

That's a real definition of a true friend.

Life, can take you anywhere, can caused you to be in different countries, and can be a handful.
But friendship, should be simple. That could make you at ease and forget about all of the hardships that life has to offer.

Having a true friend does not mean that you have to meet the person everyday to have a chat.
No. It can be once a month, or even, once a year.
But the communication, should not be once a month or year, or when you need help or only when you need someone when you're down, whilst you were not there when I'm in need.

The technology these days can shock you. It exists to make your life much more simple.
There should no longer be excuses of being busy or simply do not have time.
The technology is there, so use it!

Friendship, takes both ways.
I think I have done my part enough. I have showed you my effort and I have proven that I'm willing to go the extra mile for the friendship.
But what do I get in return?

The silent treatment.

Hence, you are receiving my silent treatment now. Maybe forever.

Like I said,
I believe in equality.


Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Let Him Go.

I love cover songs. It so happens that I love the original song by Passenger. And I also love the cover song by Jasmine Thompson. But when I stumbled upon this cover song by Birdy, I think this is the winner :) Love it. Enjoy!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Escapism trip to Omaha Beach, Normandy.

This was taken during our escapism trip to Normandy, France on Sept 2013. I have always wanted to go to France (specifically Paris) but somehow we have decided to try something new by not concentrating on Paris only but explore other beautiful places in the country as well.

Hence, Normandy France came to mind. All because of Omaha Beach. Yeah, we are influenced by the Saving Private Ryan movie I guess. And when I googled the place, I was so excited because it is so beautiful.

But when we arrived there, I was wrong. It is not only beautiful, but it's so breathtaking! SubhanAllah. Can't believe I get to view this amazing place with my own eyes.

Normandy is a very small town. About 2 hours train ride from Paris, then have to take another train and a bus to go to Port-en-Bessin.

The journey was tiring..what with the jet lagged and all. But it is worth it. Because we were so happy when we arrived :)

Definitely something different huh? 

Enjoy the pictures! Its taken by yours truly using my handphone. Love it!


Friday, December 13, 2013

Eight posts (well, including this..NINE posts) for 2013.

Hm. Not a good achievement, Sarah Abdullah.


I started out typing this post thinking that it might be a short one. But then again, maybe it will be a long post considering that well, I'm reporter. Writing is what I do. Heck, I got paid for writing, man! So yeah, maybe it will be a long post.

It's already December. How time flies huh? Almost the end of 2013. And then, we say HELLO to 2014.

What the hell...

How come it's already December, man? I'm turning 26 years old in a few days. TWENTY-SIX. *Gasp*

And next year...TWENTY-SEVEN.


I have dreams that I want to achieve.

When I was in school, I want to be a reporter. Well, here I am. A reporter. For almost 3 years already.
So what's next? What else, Sarah?

Sometimes, I feel quite passive. Although it's kind of impossible to be passive when you're a reporter because you always go out for assignments almost everyday.

In short, you're active. Going here and there.

And yet, I still feel passive. Why is that...

I guess it's because I've been doing the same thing daily for the past three years. I've grown comfortable with it. I've faced every challenges and accepted all opportunities given by my editors. So maybe that is why I'm questioning all this.

Maybe it's time to change.

Right now, if I really ask myself what I wanna do. In a blink of an eye, my heart answers.

And it says, I want to further my studies and be a student again.

InsyaAllah. InsyaAllah. InsyaAllah.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

New Beginning.

Here's to a new beginning.

Life as we know it is a journey. Full of obstacles, challenges, hardships, happiness, and the list goes on and on. Every single time we take a step forward, we always pray for the best.

And this new beginning, is my one step closer to become a good muslimah. InsyaAllah.

July 10th 2013. First day of Ramadan. It was the day when I said to myself, 

"Okay, Sarah. This is the perfect day. It's now or never."

And I just grab my tudung and wear it, together with my blue baju kurung.

Mum and dad was quite surprised. Mum even asked if I'm wearing tudung because of the event that I'm covering that day which needs me to wear one.

And I said no.

Then she guessed again, if I'm wearing tudung only because it's the fasting month.

Again, I said no. And I smiled at her. I said,

"Because I think it's time, Mi (Mami)."

She had a very beautiful smile plastered on her face when I said it. I blushed furiously, didn't like the attention given and quickly made my way to my dad. He asked,

"Eh dah pakai tudung? ALHAMDULILLLAH!!"

I smiled at him. Was quite surprised actually. Didn't know it's a big deal to them considering they've never pushed or even asked me when am I planning to wear hijab.

Guess they want me to do it on my own, when I'm ready. Alhamdulillah :)

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Lazy is me.

Take a look at myself, from head to toe, you can sense that I'm a very simple person. Always wear something comfortable, maybe because of my job, but seriously I am always like this. Always.

I hate doing things that will take up so much of my time. Like, using facial wash then proceeded with using toner and moisturiser. Or applying make up before going out. Or ironing my hair. Wear something that will take hoursss to get ready. I hate. Because, I really treasure my time...

...and also because I am so pemalas to concentrate on myself more than what I really need.

For example, if I have to hit the road and go to work by 7.30am, I can wake up at 7am, take my shower real quick, wear anything simple and off I go!

BUT, if I have to wash my face 'properly' and wear make up, or do my hair to make it look 'nicer', I may need to wake up at 6am or 6.30am. Now now, who would want to do that?? Less sleeping time? Nuh-ah. I treasure and appreciate my beauty sleep (beauty kerr?) with all my heart.

So I guess you can take a hint now. I'm lazy to do unnecessary things and I'm not a morning person, that's why I love to sleepppp in the morning.

I guess, I prefer to concentrate on other things without concentrating on myself more.

Some people buat facial regularly. Me? Guess please... (Of course, never!)
Some people make appointments to do manicures and pedicures regularly. Me? (Only once. Tu pun sebab buat girls day out kononnya with girlfriends because one of em are getting engaged.)
Hair treatment? Scalp treatment? Spa? Massage? Mandi lulur apa bagai? Can you guess already? Hahaha.

Certain people, they will ask me why. And my answer is very simple: Because I don't see any difference if I do it and didn't do it. No difference at all. Still the same, like this. Satisfied?

So now, I want to ask you a question: Do you think I'm weird? (Please say No!) Not.