I don't know if I'm happy, or sad. Sometimes, I wish I could close my eyes and when I open it, it will already turned December. And sometimes, I wish I could stop the time and everything around me will stop moving, just so that I can be where I am now.
I am happy there. Although not all the time happy, but most of the time, yes :)
I am very much in disbelief of this fact. The fact that we're almost reaching the end. The ultimate finish line.
At times, when I think about tomorrow and what will my future looks like later, I'll stop myself and ignore the thoughts. At times, I am in denial that I'll be free, as free as a bird after this.
But tonight, while I was waiting for the red light to turn green, I was listening to the radio and I heard this song from All American Rejects. There are this particular line that made me smile, automatically, unintentionally....seriously. It was,
"It ends tonight. It ends tonight."
And at that point of the song, I felt serene. Relieved. At peace.
Although I don't want the working part at ntv7 to end, but I do want to end my training with Media Prima..officially, successfully :) InsyaAllah.
Although it may seemed easy, but nobody but US knows how much difficult it is. To shoulder other people's expectation where of course they expect the very best. Expectation from families because of course they want to hear good news. And to shoulder the programme's name - JPEC where of course the people out there wants to see if we're good enough.
It is tiring and also stressful, but I feel appreciated to shoulder this huge amount of expectation from people.
And I'm thankful, to be given this precious opportunity to work there, to produce stories for the news, to meet all of the wonderful people there. It's priceless.