Friday, December 2, 2011

Not inspired to blog for the time being.

I'm sorry blog.

Take care everyone.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

To a friend who is a wife now :)


Time flies. People around me, it's either they're getting engaged, or getting married, or are on the way to welcome a baby in their life.

And honestly speaking, I am so happy for them.

I have a few friends who have a couple of kids already. Thank God I love kids, so whenever we hang out, we endlessly talked about kids. Haha. I feel old.

So with that, I would like to congratulate my beautiful colleague Nur Syazwani Roslan or Nani, for making it through to the next level in her life: Being a wife.

Through out being a Masscomm student, I was told that two people from the same field can't be together, because it'll be difficult. And I believe it.

But Nani and her husband Bobby is a living proof that it's not true. Both of them are reporters and look at them now :)

You wanna know what happen? Love happens, and when two person love each other, everything should be simple right?

Congratulations again, Nani and Bobby! There are no words to describe how happy I am for both of you. I'll see you tonight! Can't wait :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Holes Inside



'Holes Inside' by Joe Brooks

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
Cos nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone astray.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

Your feet are stuck, no they cannot move,
Don't tell me that they're glued,
Yeh they're far from.
At home, at ease but give sometime to breathe

When nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

But everything will be ok,
I know that it's so easy to say,
But the pain inside will fade,
Please tell me that you'll stay.

If we hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams can collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Good news!

I am ready to open up my heart again.

I am ready to fall in love again.

I am ready to have someone steal my heart again.

I am ready :)

ps: omg I can't believe I just posted that in here. haha oh well!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Adele sang, "Never mind I'll find someone like you..."

I'd say, "I'll never find someone as similar as you..."

You are One in a Million and you are someone that I Never Knew I Needed.

:)

Y.O.U

You vanished in my life, in the real life. But you managed to make an appearance in my dreams. Quite a number of times.

It made me believe even more that we are not meant to meet again and I will not hear any news from you, ever.

Rest assured, you crossed my mind all the time. Every single minute to be exact. No matter how hard I've tried to distract my mind & think of something or someone else, you'll always take a peek inside my mind.

That's annoying.

But, I hope, you're thinking of me too? Although I know not every single minute like I do, but I hope every few hours or every few days your thoughts of me would be suffice.

At least I would know that I do matter in your life and I am not some meaningless girl.

But I guess I am your saviour. I appeared in your life when you needed someone who could make you stand up again.

And now, you're healed and you could rule the world all by yourself or with the people that you want in your life, which means it's time for me to leave.

Yea, I guess I only played a minor role in your life. And, it's a wrap for me.

Lead a happy life, I don't need anything in return, just a few thoughts of me is enough.

:) Take care.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Yahoo!

I can't believe I performed Arabic dance last Wednesday.

In other words...

I can't believe I 'bergelek' in front of all of the Media Prima big bosses last Wednesday.

*gasp*

But luckily I covered my face during the MPB open house. Mysterious la konon.
It was so funny! After the performance, I took off the kain and a lot of my friends were like "Laa ko ke Sarah yang gelek tadi tu??" Hahaha.

So relieved that not many people knew it was me! haha :) But anyhoo, it's a great experience. I had fun! *thumbs up*

Thanks for supporting us! *including you :)*

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Bergelek

Spending a few hours in front of the mirror trying to be as flexible as I can.

*sigh* How lah to gelek without embarrassing myself and ended up looked so stupid?

Arabic dance, you are killing me!!

Countdown: Two more days *dupdapdupdap*

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Why do I have this instant hunch that some of the anonymous comments are from you?

*geleng kepala*

I don't know why I am allowing myself to let you inside my head. Go away.

Baby, please remember me once more


"Don't You Remember" by Adele

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?


**Adele's songs just makes sense. Wanna know about my life right now? Just listen to her songs. Nuff said.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Eid

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my friends!
Minta ampun & maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki kalau ada salah silap & terkasar bahasa hingga mengguris hati.

Jom kita buka buku baru? 0-0 ye :)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Nicole Scherzinger - Right There ft. 50 Cent

The lyrics are inappropriate, I agree. But I just loveeeeee this songgggg. Can't get enough of it :)


Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

Confession: I am a lot more broken than how I appeared to be. And somehow, I became inspired & more positive whenever I listen to this song :) So cheers!


Saturday, August 20, 2011

Friends, don't leave me...

I always feel like I'm losing friends. Although I know I have 500+ friends in Facebook but come on, let's face it...when I post a status or something, I never received 500+ comments from those friends. Tried to reduce that number but I can't delete them. Because I know them.

Anyways...
What I'm trying to say at the first place is, I think I have less friends now. And I'm not surprised if it will be much lesser in a few years time.
Why did I say that, in case you're wondering?

Well, it's because of my commitment towards my job. I have to commit 24 hours, 7 days a week. Doesn't matter if you're off that day, but you still have to be in standby mode. Just in case. Never once during my off day, I leave the house without my handphone or even leave the room without my handphone! Just in case if the office called and wants me to work. That happens, although not all the time, but it could happen.

And, that's why I can't commit to any plans. Doesn't matter if it's simple stuff like lepak session and dinner plans or something bigger like going for a vacation.

And I realised about it yesterday.
When I was supposed to buka puasa with my bestfriends at Johnnys which I've been craving for such a longgg time, and later at night I was planning to go for a lepak session with my Diploma classmates at Bangsar.
The plan I had was perfect.
Because that day I covered a court case and I planned to finish the story real quick so that I can go to Johnnys around 6pm to order.

But sadly I have to cancel because I have to go shoot for my "Berbuka Di Mana" segment because we didn't have enough stock for tomorrow.
And other reporters are busy with late assignments so I can't ask them to go.
Haih. I'm so depressed!

But, what kind of reporter will I be and how will my colleagues or editors look at me if I chose to go back early while my colleagues are struggling with work?
What kind of reporter am I if I ignore the fact that we didn't have stock for tomorrow.

I had to cancel.
I'm sorry, friends.

I know they didn't hold grudges or anything because they know I had to work but still, I feel so bad, up until today.

I wondered, what if I have to cancel every single time I have plans with them? I know eventually they will give up making plans with me. And ended up, I'm left with much less friends or even worse, no friends at all!

Choy! *touch wood*

But just for the record, to all my friends who happen to read this, I am deeply sorry.
And I would like to apologize in advance if there will be any future cancellation. Just so you know, to cancel is my last option.

I treasure all my friends! And I don't think I can go on with this messed up life of mine without you, friends :) Much love!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

I miss you, miss you.

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku,
Apa khabar dia di sana?
Aku rindukan senyumannya ya Allah.
Senyumannya boleh buat semua hati yang sedang bergelodak menjadi tenang.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan di kalangan yang beriman.
Amin ya rabbal alamin.


P/s: I always wish you will enter my dreams. Hope tonight will be a lucky night.

Friday, August 12, 2011


I'm okay now. Alhamdulillah! :)

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

The One Where Breaking Down Became Messy.


Something sad is when letting people to finally see how broken you really are.
All my life, I've been keeping a lot of things inside. I never shared with anyone.
No matter what happens, especially the sad & bad news, I don't normally share with people.
If they do know, is their luck. But I always show my strong side with a smile on my face to convince people that I am okay.

But, I am a normal human being. I am a weak woman.

I failed to keep it to myself yesterday. I failed to act strong yesterday.
It's because I am tired. Tired of appearing like I am strong at the outside so that people won't bother asking me questions while at the inside my heart and my soul is breaking every second.

My mother, my sister, my close friends..they've been reminding a lot of times how unhealthy it is to not share your sadness with people. They said I love to "simpan dalam".

Well people, now you know what happens when I've finally allow you to have a peek inside my heart.
It wasn't pretty. Breaking down wasn't pretty.

And what my family & friends told me was true. I can't keep it inside forever. Once I grew tired of it, BOOMMM! You know what happened. I broke down. Pretty badly.

Which leads to me having fever the next day. And I took MC. Thank God for that. The post-breakdown is still around today. And I needed that MC. To make myself healthy again and to cure my heart.

I'm okay now. I'm okay today.

It's time to go on with my life and back to my normal self. I wasn't myself for the past year.

But I'm back baby.

I am so blessed to be surrounded with a bunch of good friends. You know who you are. You are so supportive, so kind and most importantly, so worried! Sorry for making you worry.

Thanks for all of your kindness.

For the first time since last year, I can be frank to myself and to you guys that I AM OKAY NOW. Like, finally.

Syukur Alhamdulillah :)

Tuesday, August 2, 2011


Saya bekerja pada Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Anda bagaimana?

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

In the nutshell.

Lama betul tak update blog, I know. Dah sebulan lebih.

Sangat cliche kalau nak cakap takde masa kan. But it's true, I guess.
Work has changed my life & my routine.

Makin lama kerja, dugaan & cabaran pun makin banyak. The expectation from people especially the bosses also makin tinggi. Especially bila dah confirm sekarang ni.

Yes, I received my confirmation letter already. Syukur Alhamdulillah. No more under probation.

But that doesn't mean I can sit back, relax & goyang kaki kan. I have to work harder. There's a lot of things that I want to achieve in this industry.

But I am thankful for all of the opportunity that I received with the Feel Good family.

Being sent overseas, doing a special programme, doing a paid segment, covering a hardcore assignments and most recently, of course, covering the Bersih rally.

Great experience, all of that. But I am still new, lots & lots of things to learn. And I'm glad I have a bunch of helpful and inspiring colleagues. Most importantly, all of them are the most fun & crazy people :)

Anyways, a lot of things happened these past few months. That's why I've been updating short posts or post videoclips and all.

I lost 2 friends in May and July. The first one is someone that I've known dearly since Diploma days. Which kenal dia sebab jual buku kat dia but because of that, jadi kawan rapat. And the other one is my batch mate in UiTM. Kitorang banyak merge class during degree and I know her from there. Not so close but I enjoyed talking to her & her friends during class.

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Azreen Sohaimi or Ayie and Hartini Sulaiman.
I miss both of you. I miss your presence.

Life is short to go through with hatred and anger. Life is short to make enemies. Embrace everything, love everyone. Because we are not going to be around forever and neither do them.

Live your life with positivity :)

And to Arwah Ayie, Arwah Hartini, Arwah Putri, Arwah Nabila, my late grandparents, my late aunties, uncles and family members, I'll see you at the other side..soon :)

In the mean time people, live your life with happy thoughts and full positivity. And be healthy!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Kisah Hati - Alyah


Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

**I think this song is the saddest song ever! :((((( **

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

I'm home. Feels like I'm dreaming. Time flies when we're having fun huh?

Nevermind, I'm thankful & I am so glad to have a jolly good escapism last weekend.
To make it much better is when that great time was shared with a bunch of people that I love most.

Which leads to a saying, "No road is long with good company."
Second that.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Escapism, here we come!!

Oh so happy, after months of planning. I really need this. A lot of stuff happened recently..the not so great stuff. So I really need this short and sweet escape :)

See you guys next week! :D

Sunday, May 29, 2011

I'll find someone like you.


Adele - Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

** Discovered this song while I was browsing my friend's tumblr. And straightaway I fell in love with it. There's
something special about this song. It's like, although you are hurt, but you are trying to look at the bright side and will try to be happy for him, if he's happy :) And I see it as a good thing.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Positive thinking.

Went to Shah Alam today, to re-live my university memories. It was very impromptu. At first we were planning to go for a lepak session but we didn't know where to go.

Then I started to have this sudden crave for Nasi Lemak and straight away we've decided to go to Shah Alam. Our destination: Nasi Lemak Cinta Sayang (NLCS).

It's either that or Pakli. They have the best Nasi Ayam Lemon. But my crave for nasi lemak is stronger so off we go to NLCS.

I was driving. In Shah Alam. Mind you, when I was doing my diploma and degree, I didn't drive. Didn't have the guts to drive actually. So driving in Shah Alam today, passed by a few spots and places that I'm familiar the most, it felt good.

I have created a million priceless memories there throughout my university days. I've been reminiscing about it the whole time I was in Shah Alam just now.

And it's a good thing, it's a positive thing. I tend to forget my grudges with certain people and just remind myself of the good deeds those people had done for me.

Walking down the memory lane is definitely a healthy thing to do :)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

A song that I can totally relate to now..


Turning Tables by Adele

Close enough to start a war,
All that I have is on the floor,
God only knows what we're fighting for,
All that I say, you always say more.

I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe.

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables.

Under haunted skies I see you, ooh,
Where love is lost, your ghost is found,
I braved a hundred storms to leave you,
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down.

I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe.

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
Turning tables.

Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
When the thunder calls for me,
Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet.

I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,
Turning tables, yeah,
Turning, no, ooh.

Friday, May 20, 2011

So long, farewell, it's time to say Goodbye.

A person, if they were constantly being pushed away, they will be gone from your lives eventually.

Well congratulations, your childish act of avoiding, talking harshly and never treat me nicely has finally taken its toll on me.

You don't deserve me and a spot in my heart anymore.

And I don't want you anymore. In my life. Ever. For eternity.

Such a waste of time and emotions to blog about this but I know this is a crucial moment in my life. And I am looking forward for the next few months or years from now, I'm sure I will read this post again and just laugh it off.

And by that time, I will wonder...."What kind of person have you become now."

I am so looking forward for that! :) :)

Yes, I am all smiley now, because finally I'm allowing myself to let it go.

Perihal Hati.


Hati, bila asyik disakiti, boleh jadi kering.

Hati, bila sering dilukai, akan tertutup dengan sendiri.


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Cikgu saya.

Pergi lepak dengan Intan & Farah kat Hassan malam tadi.
Tengah rancak bercerita, ternampak satu wajah yang cukup dikenali.

Cikgu Bahasa Melayu masa sekolah dulu :)
Puan Norhaneem namanya.

Konon nak bisik dekat diorang "Eh cikgu laaa.." tapi sekali dia perasan pulak kita dah pandang. Dia pun datang pada meja kami dan borak-borak.
Seronok dengar dia bercerita tentang keluarganya & perkahwinan anaknya.
Tangan dah pegang ipad siap buka Facebook sebab nak tunjuk potret keluarga.
Cukup ramah cikgu ni. Memang antara cikgu yang sangat baik dengan kami.

Dia siap tanya lagi "U all study mana sekarang?" (Terus perasan muda kejap hihi)
Laju je kami jawab, "Ehhh dah kerja la cikgu. Dah 24 tahun ni sekarang.." (Ikut tahun, dah 24 la. Kalau ikut bulan, belum lagi. Hah tanak mengaku tua jugak tu! haha)

Sebelum berpisah sebab dia nak pergi dating dengan husbandnya, dia sempat pesan pada kami:
"U all kalau dah jumpa jodoh tu, kahwin la terus. Jangan kahwin lambat-lambat. Cikgu dulu umur 24 dah ada anak seorang."

**CUE: Sentap sekarang please!!**

Haha. Takde la rasa nak kahwin tapi bila kena advice macam tu terus rasa macam "Aduyaii bila jodoh nak sampai niiiii" haha. Sore loser as always. Haih.

Sarah, kita kena percaya pada jodoh. Sementara tunggu jodoh sampai, apa kata pergi persiapkan diri dulu..inside and out. Stabilkan kewangan dulu, kerja sungguh-sungguh. Buktikan kemampuan kita. Masa tengah takde komitmen la senang nak kerja 24 hours pun kan.

YES! I love it when my positive side is talking senses with my negative side! :D

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Mr & Mrs Right

About 2 years ago, I wrote this entry at this blog.


Hilarious. At the time, I was sharing a quote I like and even called myself "Doctor Love".
I thought I've found my The One, that's why I told my readers about the quote where they will come across a few wrong ones to find their right one.

I can't believe he wasn't my Mr Right. He was Mr Wrong wrong wrong.

So Mr Right, where are you? Can you stop playing hide and seek with me? I'm getting tireddddd!

Sincerely,
Your Mrs Right :)

Congrats!


Congratulations on your convocation today (140511) my dear Farah!

Love you loadssss! :)

Oh yes, my previous post, is about you.
It's always about you.

Always have, always will.
Still clutching on the memories.

It's unhealthy...it's not good, I know.

Sometimes I secretly wish that one day when I wake up I won't be able to remember a thing.
Yes, I wish I have an amnesia so that I could just forget.

So please do me a favor. Can you smack my head REALLY REALLY hard and make my dreams come true?

Please...with cherries on top.

Friday, May 13, 2011


Berkawan biar beribu kan?

I'm glad you are one of them :)

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Dream watch

Oh, and today I surveyed a few watches. In need of a watch, can't rely on my phone. Sometimes it's too slow, sometimes it's too fast. Affect my credibility as a reporter because I NEED TO BE PUNCTUAL!

Been putting my intention to buy a watch on hold as well, for quite a while. Promised with someone that we've to save up some money to buy couple watch. Well well nasib tak beli, it'll be such a waste now huh?

Learned my lesson. NEVER buy any products for couple: Couple watch, couple shirts etc. EXCEPT if you're married. It's more secure.

So yeah, surveyed and fall in love with a few watches today.

This month's mission: SAVE UP A LOT OF MONEY TO BUY MY DREAM WATCH!

My target:
I'll dream of you tonight :)

Productive off days.

What a productive off days! (I think)

I'm off for 4 days, until Saturday. I love May because I have a lot of off days! I think it's because when I was in Sarawak, I worked for more than 30 days without any off, so this month they replaced my off days.

:D :D Yeah yeah work was very tiring but the end result? Totally worth it, don't you think?

Okay so my off days this time was very productive because I'm spring cleaning my room. Been put it on hold since forever. I don't remember when was the last time I clear up things in my room. I've been spring cleaning since yesterday and I am still not done! I found a lot of school stuff, from primary school. Can you believe it? No wonder it took so long for me to clear my room. I'll continue tomorrow, already filled 4 garbage bags so I think I'm done for tonight.

4 garbage bags and I still have a lot of junk in my room. Haish. And mind you, my room is not that big. I don't know how did I squeeze14 years worth of stuff in that room. Yes, stuff since I was standard 4.

Well anyways, another reason why I said my off days were productive is because I've been keeping tabs with all of the current movies! I always get left behind when it comes to movies.

So today I went to watch this:
Waaa it was awesome I tell you! I love the effects the most! And I love Natalie Portman. And of course, Thor himself: Chris Hemsworth. Don't really fancy him because he's a blondie. But his body is to die for! I like. Almost everyone watching the movie was literally gasping when he was topless. Ahahaha.

Well moving on. Tomorrow I'm watching another movie which I've been anxious about! Woohooo. Two movies in a row, two movie dates. What more can I ask for? (Haha okay bunyi pervert lak) :P :P

Anyways, have a good day dear readers! I know I will :)

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Senyum!

I went to the dentist today. It's called Smile. I feel good about the clinic just by hearing the name. Because it's Smileee! What's the first thing u remember when someone mentioned smile? Of course the mouth. And mouth? ---> TEETH!!!

And yes, I was all smiley when I enter the clinic.

I can't really remember when was the last time I went to see the dentist. I know it was during my uni days, at Pusat Kesihatan. That bloody Pusat Kesihatan.
It wasn't pleasant I tell you. I know it's free for the students but the doctors!!...they were really harsh man. I know my teeth needs a lot of cleaning to do at the time but don't take it on my teeth!

Well somehow, I think when they are cleaning my teeth, the tool they're using must've hurt my gums because not long after I stepped out of the Pusat Kesihatan, my gums were swollen. Quite badly.

To a point where I can't even chew a thing.
It hurts so bad, I have to take pain killer(s). And I am relying on the pain killers 100%. It wasn't good, I became addictive to that drug.
The pain was aching until I actually cried at night. (no kidding!)
I was deeply in pain, I can't even be bothered to make a hot nescafe to swallow the pills. I swallow it with plain water. Which is RARE!

So after that incident, I was a lil bit traumatic with dentist. But I know I can't escape from seeing them because I have a very unhealthy gums & I need to do scaling every 6 months.

But yes, I think it was 1 year after that when I've decided to go to the dentist. (I think that's because my office cover our dental as well.) So it's gonna be such a waste, right?
The doctor was nice but I can't blame her for nagging at me when she saw my teeth right?

Let me recall back her words where it feels like there's a dagger sticking out of my heart!

Scene 1
Her: Bila last pergi cuci gigi?
Me: Emmmm... Masa university dulu.
Her: How long ago was thattttt?
Me: @?!&*% (cover balik) Ahaha. Tak lama lah. Last year? (Tipu sangat. Last year, convo! Pergi scaling, before practical lagi!)
*cuci**cuci**cuci**cuci**cuci**
Her: U sure baru setahun tak cuci? Macam dah 5 tahun!!
Me: (Dagger #1) Hihihihi.

Scene 2
Her: Gusi u teruk. Bleeding.
Me: Yeah, bleeding teruk kan.
Her: Teruk sangat. Macam gusi orang umur 80 tahun!
Me: (Dagger #2) ---speechless terus----

Anyhoo, mulut dia memang laser but she's nice. Surprisingly, I really like her! Haha.
And I have to go to the dentist again in 3 weeks time to complete the whole scaling process.
It's not done yet, obviously. Thanks to my overly bleeding gums!

But in the meantime, I can smileeeeeeeeeee like nobody's business! Hey, doktor tu siap polish my teeth tau! *shiny shiny*
:D :D :D

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Strangers, again


I noticed this video in Facebook. At first I was lazy to watch it coz the duration is too long but seeing a lot of my friends post this video, I guess there must be something special or something so true bout it, right?

Well, I'm not in a relationship right now hence I'm not in any stage for the time being. But I used to be and every stage in this video, I guess every couple experience the same thing before it went down the drain. Same goes with me.

And I always wonder, how about the married couple? Is it not the same? Will they or will they not experience this as well? If it happens when we're married, that is scary. Makes me think that I am so not ready to get married and if one day I've found someone, it's gonna take one hell of a long time for me to totally trust that person before take it to the next level.

*sigh*

But whatever it is, all in all, the good thing about life and being a person who has a belief, I totally believe in "jodoh" and that every person has it's own partner. Hold on to that is enough for me :)

But still, no harm done in watching this video and speculate right? So to those who wasn't aware about this video in Facebook, go and watch it people. It's a good video with a great message and I love the story telling part. Makes u reminisce every single stage in your relationship and ask yourself "Do I experience this? And that?" :) It's a good one.



Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Honey, I'm home!!

I'm home baby, I AM HOMEEEEE!

Omaigod, it was like...so surreal. One month+ journey has come to an end. Can you believe it? I still can't.
I've been waiting for today to come since Day 1. And now, it's over. Our Sayang Sarawak programme...is over. It's a wrap!

Oh so happy.

Happy to be filled with happiness everyday and being surrounded with amazing and chaotic and hilarious people throughout.
Happy to have loads of new friends that I love and cherish.
Happy to have collected great & wonderful experience from our journey.

THANK YOU EVERYONE (All Sarawakians & Sayang Sarawak crews) for making my journey in Kuching a jolly good one! :D
Love you guys so much. And can't wait to bump with everyone at the office...very very soon! :)

Friday, April 8, 2011

From Sarawak, With Love :)

It's been a while, I know. I refused to give excuses but easy to say, I don't have time to update.

I'm sorry, blog. For abandoning you...again.


To those who doesn't know (I'm sure a lot of my friends know bout this through Facebook), I'm at Kuching, Sarawak now. Since March 15th. I'm here until April 18th, insyaAllah.


I'm doing a special one-month programme called "Sayang Sarawak". It's aired everyday on the evenings on TV3. Life here is quite hectic, a lot of things to do. But there are times where we have our free time (like today). No one is in the workstation area, I think because today is Friday. Most of them will probably come in after Jumaat prayers.



I'm alone in the room, and was browsing the Facebook while doing some research. Then this blog came to mind. Aaaa I miss blogging. Loads to tell! But I can't think now. Coz I'm typing this in a public room, no privacy hehe. That's why I can't think.


But one thing for sure, I'm exhausted. I'm physically and mentally drained. Being here for a month, working everyday, 24/7, no off days at all....of course I'm tired. I am not strong you know. I'm weak! But I don't want to show my weakness, considering I'm the most junior here and I have to prove to them that I deserve to be here.


I can do this. Yes, I can.


I have 3 days off once I'm home. I'll spare a day just to update this blog..for the memories :)


I miss a lot of people! I was homesick the first week, but now, I'm okay. I miss my mother the most. Always get teary-eyed whenever I think of her.


I'm counting the days now. 10 days to go :) But now, I'm living my life in Sarawak to the fullest. Yeah!


Take care everyone!~


**Oh, my first sister, Kak Zizi is going to London (not sure when, maybe tomorrow or today or yesterday! I can't remember). Envy her like a lot! But that's okay, I'm confident that I will go there someday. Amin :) Take care and have fun Kak Zizi! :D

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Positive Month.

Okay, si Intan Amir dah bagi komen kenapa aku asyik post emosi je kat blog. *sentap*

Haha babe! I was sick la that day. Nausea leads to no appetite which leads to stomach cramp..a bad one. Now I know apa perasaannya jadi orang tua bongkok tiga coz the whole day I had to walk like that. I can't stand straight. Sumpah merana.

And the reason why I let it out in here is because that time, I felt lonely. Tak tau nak mengadu kat siapa & there's a lot of things going on that didn't go well as planned. And semua orang macam ada agenda sendiri, and I was left with no agenda at all, I was a bit depressed..I'll admit that.

I was a bit sad, for that day.

But now, dah okay. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Mama duk risau about my cramps sebab dah melarat sampai esoknya, sampai kena text editor nak bagitau akan masuk office lambat coz I was unable to get up. Sakit gila perut.
Tapi memikirkan my English editor was all alone that day, no one to help him with the stories, so terpaksa la gagahkan jugak. Nasib baik masa tu weekend. Tak rushing sangat la.

Mama risau sebab baca suratkhabar Utusan bahagian Kesihatan tu ada feature pasal appendix, and dia dah fikir bukan-bukan.
But I have to admit as well that the symptoms which was listed out in the feature, I had the same thing that day. So couldn't blame my mother for being worried, right?
But thankfully, the rest of the day in the office I felt fine. So I don't think there's a need to go to the clinic.

Haha well, just to point out that, I don't really like to post emotional stuff in here. But honestly, there are times when I feel so lonely and no one there lending a helping hand. So I have this blog to thank.

Of course it's frustrating coz whenever possible I'll always try my best to be there for my friends. And when I need them the most, they're not around. Well, can't blame them as well for having stuff to do and me with no life.

Although it is tiring but I was happy to get this month's schedule. I don't have a lot of off days and I'm glad. I don't get a lot of 3-days-straight off days and it's a good thing. At least I don't have to plan what to do with my off days, coz obviously whatever I've planned, it's not gonna work out. So that's fine.

Yup, this month gonna be such a hassle. Working 5-6 days straight with only a day off. But hey, look at the bright side. I'll buried myself with workload and I know I'm gonna enjoy it. Not gonna complain anything. This month is a busy month. With 2 by-election and all.

But, I'm off on Friday and I already know what I'm gonna do. To do my passport. Haha. Same old, same old the loser me. Left with no passport, left out an opportunity. Takpe la, mungkin takde rezeki. I'm sure I'll have my chance in the future. Just be positive! :)