rock my world, please.

Singapore.

2012-01-10T01:51:00.003+08:00

Greetings from Singapore!

We've just arrived in Singapore for our short but sweet trip. Flight tadi pukul 10.30pm, sampai kat Changi Airport around 11.30pm++.
Now safely arrived at our hostel. Located in Bugis Street. The hostel is called Tree in Lodge, a very very go green hostel, I can say hehe.
Always thought that I will try my very best to go restaurants that have wifi access, but thankfully our hostel offers wifi as well. Ahhhh thank God hehe.
Will be here until 12th January, will make use of the moment I'm here. Like when else am I coming here right?

Okay, this is just a short update. Take care everyone!

2011-12-02T15:23:00.001+08:00

Not inspired to blog for the time being.

I'm sorry blog.

Take care everyone.

To a friend who is a wife now :)

2011-11-12T14:15:00.002+08:00

Time flies. People around me, it's either they're getting engaged, or getting married, or are on the way to welcome a baby in their life.

And honestly speaking, I am so happy for them.

I have a few friends who have a couple of kids already. Thank God I love kids, so whenever we hang out, we endlessly talked about kids. Haha. I feel old.

So with that, I would like to congratulate my beautiful colleague Nur Syazwani Roslan or Nani, for making it through to the next level in her life: Being a wife.

Through out being a Masscomm student, I was told that two people from the same field can't be together, because it'll be difficult. And I believe it.

But Nani and her husband Bobby is a living proof that it's not true. Both of them are reporters and look at them now :)

You wanna know what happen? Love happens, and when two person love each other, everything should be simple right?

Congratulations again, Nani and Bobby! There are no words to describe how happy I am for both of you. I'll see you tonight! Can't wait :)

Holes Inside

2011-10-01T15:21:00.001+08:00

'Holes Inside' by Joe Brooks

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
Cos nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone astray.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

Your feet are stuck, no they cannot move,
Don't tell me that they're glued,
Yeh they're far from.
At home, at ease but give sometime to breathe

When nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

But everything will be ok,
I know that it's so easy to say,
But the pain inside will fade,
Please tell me that you'll stay.

If we hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams can collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside.

Good news!

2011-09-28T00:15:00.002+08:00

I am ready to open up my heart again.

I am ready to fall in love again.

I am ready to have someone steal my heart again.

I am ready :)

ps: omg I can't believe I just posted that in here. haha oh well!

2011-09-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

Adele sang, "Never mind I'll find someone like you..."

I'd say, "I'll never find someone as similar as you..."

You are One in a Million and you are someone that I Never Knew I Needed.

Y.O.U

2011-09-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

You vanished in my life, in the real life. But you managed to make an appearance in my dreams. Quite a number of times.

It made me believe even more that we are not meant to meet again and I will not hear any news from you, ever.

Rest assured, you crossed my mind all the time. Every single minute to be exact. No matter how hard I've tried to distract my mind & think of something or someone else, you'll always take a peek inside my mind.

That's annoying.

But, I hope, you're thinking of me too? Although I know not every single minute like I do, but I hope every few hours or every few days your thoughts of me would be suffice.

At least I would know that I do matter in your life and I am not some meaningless girl.

But I guess I am your saviour. I appeared in your life when you needed someone who could make you stand up again.

And now, you're healed and you could rule the world all by yourself or with the people that you want in your life, which means it's time for me to leave.

Yea, I guess I only played a minor role in your life. And, it's a wrap for me.

Lead a happy life, I don't need anything in return, just a few thoughts of me is enough.

:) Take care.

Yahoo!

2011-09-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I performed Arabic dance last Wednesday.

In other words...

I can't believe I 'bergelek' in front of all of the Media Prima big bosses last Wednesday.

*gasp*

But luckily I covered my face during the MPB open house. Mysterious la konon.

It was so funny! After the performance, I took off the kain and a lot of my friends were like "Laa ko ke Sarah yang gelek tadi tu??" Hahaha.

So relieved that not many people knew it was me! haha :) But anyhoo, it's a great experience. I had fun! *thumbs up*

Thanks for supporting us! *including you :)*

Bergelek

2011-09-13T02:22:00.002+08:00

Spending a few hours in front of the mirror trying to be as flexible as I can.

*sigh* How lah to gelek without embarrassing myself and ended up looked so stupid?

Arabic dance, you are killing me!!

Countdown: Two more days *dupdapdupdap*

2011-09-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

Why do I have this instant hunch that some of the anonymous comments are from you?

*geleng kepala*

I don't know why I am allowing myself to let you inside my head. Go away.

Baby, please remember me once more

2011-09-08T00:27:00.001+08:00

"Don't You Remember" by Adele

When will I see you again?

You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,

No final kiss to seal any seams,

I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?

Or have you completely erased me from your memory?

I often think about where I went wrong,

The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,

I kept my distance so you would be free,

And hope that you find the missing piece,

To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

**Adele's songs just makes sense. Wanna know about my life right now? Just listen to her songs. Nuff said.

Eid

2011-09-02T12:59:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my friends!
Minta ampun & maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki kalau ada salah silap & terkasar bahasa hingga mengguris hati.

Jom kita buka buku baru? 0-0 ye :)

Nicole Scherzinger - Right There ft. 50 Cent

2011-08-25T01:31:00.000+08:00

The lyrics are inappropriate, I agree. But I just loveeeeee this songgggg. Can't get enough of it :)

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

2011-08-25T01:21:00.000+08:00

Confession: I am a lot more broken than how I appeared to be. And somehow, I became inspired & more positive whenever I listen to this song :) So cheers!

Friends, don't leave me...

2011-08-20T21:45:00.004+08:00

I always feel like I'm losing friends. Although I know I have 500+ friends in Facebook but come on, let's face it...when I post a status or something, I never received 500+ comments from those friends. Tried to reduce that number but I can't delete them. Because I know them.

Anyways...

What I'm trying to say at the first place is, I think I have less friends now. And I'm not surprised if it will be much lesser in a few years time.

Why did I say that, in case you're wondering?

Well, it's because of my commitment towards my job. I have to commit 24 hours, 7 days a week. Doesn't matter if you're off that day, but you still have to be in standby mode. Just in case. Never once during my off day, I leave the house without my handphone or even leave the room without my handphone! Just in case if the office called and wants me to work. That happens, although not all the time, but it could happen.

And, that's why I can't commit to any plans. Doesn't matter if it's simple stuff like lepak session and dinner plans or something bigger like going for a vacation.

And I realised about it yesterday.

When I was supposed to buka puasa with my bestfriends at Johnnys which I've been craving for such a longgg time, and later at night I was planning to go for a lepak session with my Diploma classmates at Bangsar.

The plan I had was perfect.

Because that day I covered a court case and I planned to finish the story real quick so that I can go to Johnnys around 6pm to order.

But sadly I have to cancel because I have to go shoot for my "Berbuka Di Mana" segment because we didn't have enough stock for tomorrow.

And other reporters are busy with late assignments so I can't ask them to go.

Haih. I'm so depressed!

But, what kind of reporter will I be and how will my colleagues or editors look at me if I chose to go back early while my colleagues are struggling with work?

What kind of reporter am I if I ignore the fact that we didn't have stock for tomorrow.

I had to cancel.

I'm sorry, friends.

I know they didn't hold grudges or anything because they know I had to work but still, I feel so bad, up until today.

I wondered, what if I have to cancel every single time I have plans with them? I know eventually they will give up making plans with me. And ended up, I'm left with much less friends or even worse, no friends at all!

Choy! *touch wood*

But just for the record, to all my friends who happen to read this, I am deeply sorry.

And I would like to apologize in advance if there will be any future cancellation. Just so you know, to cancel is my last option.

I treasure all my friends! And I don't think I can go on with this messed up life of mine without you, friends :) Much love!

I miss you, miss you.

2011-08-18T22:20:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku,

Apa khabar dia di sana?

Aku rindukan senyumannya ya Allah.

Senyumannya boleh buat semua hati yang sedang bergelodak menjadi tenang.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan di kalangan yang beriman.

Amin ya rabbal alamin.

P/s: I always wish you will enter my dreams. Hope tonight will be a lucky night.

2011-08-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

I'm okay now. Alhamdulillah! :)

The One Where Breaking Down Became Messy.

2011-08-03T22:09:00.004+08:00

Something sad is when letting people to finally see how broken you really are.

All my life, I've been keeping a lot of things inside. I never shared with anyone.

No matter what happens, especially the sad & bad news, I don't normally share with people.

If they do know, is their luck. But I always show my strong side with a smile on my face to convince people that I am okay.

But, I am a normal human being. I am a weak woman.

I failed to keep it to myself yesterday. I failed to act strong yesterday.

It's because I am tired. Tired of appearing like I am strong at the outside so that people won't bother asking me questions while at the inside my heart and my soul is breaking every second.

My mother, my sister, my close friends..they've been reminding a lot of times how unhealthy it is to not share your sadness with people. They said I love to "simpan dalam".

Well people, now you know what happens when I've finally allow you to have a peek inside my heart.

It wasn't pretty. Breaking down wasn't pretty.

And what my family & friends told me was true. I can't keep it inside forever. Once I grew tired of it, BOOMMM! You know what happened. I broke down. Pretty badly.

Which leads to me having fever the next day. And I took MC. Thank God for that. The post-breakdown is still around today. And I needed that MC. To make myself healthy again and to cure my heart.

I'm okay now. I'm okay today.

It's time to go on with my life and back to my normal self. I wasn't myself for the past year.

But I'm back baby.

I am so blessed to be surrounded with a bunch of good friends. You know who you are. You are so supportive, so kind and most importantly, so worried! Sorry for making you worry.

Thanks for all of your kindness.

For the first time since last year, I can be frank to myself and to you guys that I AM OKAY NOW. Like, finally.

Syukur Alhamdulillah :)

2011-08-02T00:56:00.001+08:00

Saya bekerja pada Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Anda bagaimana?

In the nutshell.

2011-07-27T20:46:00.003+08:00

Lama betul tak update blog, I know. Dah sebulan lebih.

Sangat cliche kalau nak cakap takde masa kan. But it's true, I guess.

Work has changed my life & my routine.

Makin lama kerja, dugaan & cabaran pun makin banyak. The expectation from people especially the bosses also makin tinggi. Especially bila dah confirm sekarang ni.

Yes, I received my confirmation letter already. Syukur Alhamdulillah. No more under probation.

But that doesn't mean I can sit back, relax & goyang kaki kan. I have to work harder. There's a lot of things that I want to achieve in this industry.

But I am thankful for all of the opportunity that I received with the Feel Good family.

Being sent overseas, doing a special programme, doing a paid segment, covering a hardcore assignments and most recently, of course, covering the Bersih rally.

Great experience, all of that. But I am still new, lots & lots of things to learn. And I'm glad I have a bunch of helpful and inspiring colleagues. Most importantly, all of them are the most fun & crazy people :)

Anyways, a lot of things happened these past few months. That's why I've been updating short posts or post videoclips and all.

I lost 2 friends in May and July. The first one is someone that I've known dearly since Diploma days. Which kenal dia sebab jual buku kat dia but because of that, jadi kawan rapat. And the other one is my batch mate in UiTM. Kitorang banyak merge class during degree and I know her from there. Not so close but I enjoyed talking to her & her friends during class.

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Azreen Sohaimi or Ayie and Hartini Sulaiman.

I miss both of you. I miss your presence.

Life is short to go through with hatred and anger. Life is short to make enemies. Embrace everything, love everyone. Because we are not going to be around forever and neither do them.

Live your life with positivity :)

And to Arwah Ayie, Arwah Hartini, Arwah Putri, Arwah Nabila, my late grandparents, my late aunties, uncles and family members, I'll see you at the other side..soon :)

In the mean time people, live your life with happy thoughts and full positivity. And be healthy!

Kisah Hati - Alyah

2011-06-19T23:27:00.001+08:00

Hatiku hatimu

Menjadi satu cinta

Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita

Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku

Takkan mungkin bersatu

Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Mungkin kita bersama

Nanti di atas sana

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita

Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku

Takkan mungkin bersatu

Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Mungkin kita bersama

Nanti di atas sana

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Cinta kau dan aku

Takkan mungkin bersatu

Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Selamanya

**I think this song is the saddest song ever! :((((( **

2011-06-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

I'm home. Feels like I'm dreaming. Time flies when we're having fun huh?

Nevermind, I'm thankful & I am so glad to have a jolly good escapism last weekend.

To make it much better is when that great time was shared with a bunch of people that I love most.

Which leads to a saying, "No road is long with good company."

Second that.

2011-06-10T22:10:00.001+08:00

Escapism, here we come!!

Oh so happy, after months of planning. I really need this. A lot of stuff happened recently..the not so great stuff. So I really need this short and sweet escape :)

See you guys next week! :D

I'll find someone like you.

2011-05-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

Adele - Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down,

That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze,

Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead.

** Discovered this song while I was browsing my friend's tumblr. And straightaway I fell in love with it. There's

something special about this song. It's like, although you are hurt, but you are trying to look at the bright side and will try to be happy for him, if he's happy :) And I see it as a good thing.

Positive thinking.

2011-05-23T01:16:00.004+08:00

Went to Shah Alam today, to re-live my university memories. It was very impromptu. At first we were planning to go for a lepak session but we didn't know where to go.

Then I started to have this sudden crave for Nasi Lemak and straight away we've decided to go to Shah Alam. Our destination: Nasi Lemak Cinta Sayang (NLCS).

It's either that or Pakli. They have the best Nasi Ayam Lemon. But my crave for nasi lemak is stronger so off we go to NLCS.

I was driving. In Shah Alam. Mind you, when I was doing my diploma and degree, I didn't drive. Didn't have the guts to drive actually. So driving in Shah Alam today, passed by a few spots and places that I'm familiar the most, it felt good.

I have created a million priceless memories there throughout my university days. I've been reminiscing about it the whole time I was in Shah Alam just now.

And it's a good thing, it's a positive thing. I tend to forget my grudges with certain people and just remind myself of the good deeds those people had done for me.

Walking down the memory lane is definitely a healthy thing to do :)

A song that I can totally relate to now..

2011-05-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

Turning Tables by Adele

Close enough to start a war,

All that I have is on the floor,

God only knows what we're fighting for,

All that I say, you always say more.

I can't keep up with your turning tables,

Under your thumb, I can't breathe.

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,

I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,

To turning tables.

Under haunted skies I see you, ooh,

Where love is lost, your ghost is found,

I braved a hundred storms to leave you,

As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down.

I can't keep up with your turning tables,

Under your thumb, I can't breathe.

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,

I cant give you the heart you think you gave me,

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,

Turning tables.

Next time I'll be braver,

I'll be my own savior,

When the thunder calls for me,

Next time I'll be braver,

I'll be my own savior,

Standing on my own two feet.

I won't let you close enough to hurt me,

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,

I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,

To turning tables,

Turning tables, yeah,

Turning, no, ooh.

So long, farewell, it's time to say Goodbye.

2011-05-20T21:58:00.003+08:00

A person, if they were constantly being pushed away, they will be gone from your lives eventually.

Well congratulations, your childish act of avoiding, talking harshly and never treat me nicely has finally taken its toll on me.

You don't deserve me and a spot in my heart anymore.

And I don't want you anymore. In my life. Ever. For eternity.

Such a waste of time and emotions to blog about this but I know this is a crucial moment in my life. And I am looking forward for the next few months or years from now, I'm sure I will read this post again and just laugh it off.

And by that time, I will wonder...."What kind of person have you become now."

I am so looking forward for that! :) :)

Yes, I am all smiley now, because finally I'm allowing myself to let it go.

Perihal Hati.

2011-05-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

Hati, bila asyik disakiti, boleh jadi kering.

Hati, bila sering dilukai, akan tertutup dengan sendiri.

Cikgu saya.

2011-05-18T00:57:00.003+08:00

Pergi lepak dengan Intan & Farah kat Hassan malam tadi.

Tengah rancak bercerita, ternampak satu wajah yang cukup dikenali.

Cikgu Bahasa Melayu masa sekolah dulu :)

Puan Norhaneem namanya.

Konon nak bisik dekat diorang "Eh cikgu laaa.." tapi sekali dia perasan pulak kita dah pandang. Dia pun datang pada meja kami dan borak-borak.

Seronok dengar dia bercerita tentang keluarganya & perkahwinan anaknya.

Tangan dah pegang ipad siap buka Facebook sebab nak tunjuk potret keluarga.

Cukup ramah cikgu ni. Memang antara cikgu yang sangat baik dengan kami.

Dia siap tanya lagi "U all study mana sekarang?" (Terus perasan muda kejap hihi)

Laju je kami jawab, "Ehhh dah kerja la cikgu. Dah 24 tahun ni sekarang.." (Ikut tahun, dah 24 la. Kalau ikut bulan, belum lagi. Hah tanak mengaku tua jugak tu! haha)

Sebelum berpisah sebab dia nak pergi dating dengan husbandnya, dia sempat pesan pada kami:

"U all kalau dah jumpa jodoh tu, kahwin la terus. Jangan kahwin lambat-lambat. Cikgu dulu umur 24 dah ada anak seorang."

**CUE: Sentap sekarang please!!**

Haha. Takde la rasa nak kahwin tapi bila kena advice macam tu terus rasa macam "Aduyaii bila jodoh nak sampai niiiii" haha. Sore loser as always. Haih.

Sarah, kita kena percaya pada jodoh. Sementara tunggu jodoh sampai, apa kata pergi persiapkan diri dulu..inside and out. Stabilkan kewangan dulu, kerja sungguh-sungguh. Buktikan kemampuan kita. Masa tengah takde komitmen la senang nak kerja 24 hours pun kan.

YES! I love it when my positive side is talking senses with my negative side! :D

Mr & Mrs Right

2011-05-15T01:16:00.002+08:00

About 2 years ago, I wrote this entry at this blog.

http://sarahabdullah.blogspot.com/2009/05/doctor-love-anyone.html

Hilarious. At the time, I was sharing a quote I like and even called myself "Doctor Love".

I thought I've found my The One, that's why I told my readers about the quote where they will come across a few wrong ones to find their right one.

I can't believe he wasn't my Mr Right. He was Mr Wrong wrong wrong.

So Mr Right, where are you? Can you stop playing hide and seek with me? I'm getting tireddddd!

Sincerely,

Your Mrs Right :)

Congrats!

2011-05-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

Congratulations on your convocation today (140511) my dear Farah!

Love you loadssss! :)

2011-05-15T00:25:00.003+08:00

Oh yes, my previous post, is about you.

It's always about you.

Always have, always will.

2011-05-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

Still clutching on the memories.

It's unhealthy...it's not good, I know.

Sometimes I secretly wish that one day when I wake up I won't be able to remember a thing.

Yes, I wish I have an amnesia so that I could just forget.

So please do me a favor. Can you smack my head REALLY REALLY hard and make my dreams come true?

Please...with cherries on top.

2011-05-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

Berkawan biar beribu kan?

I'm glad you are one of them :)

Dream watch

2011-05-05T23:38:00.004+08:00

Oh, and today I surveyed a few watches. In need of a watch, can't rely on my phone. Sometimes it's too slow, sometimes it's too fast. Affect my credibility as a reporter because I NEED TO BE PUNCTUAL!

Been putting my intention to buy a watch on hold as well, for quite a while. Promised with someone that we've to save up some money to buy couple watch. Well well nasib tak beli, it'll be such a waste now huh?

Learned my lesson. NEVER buy any products for couple: Couple watch, couple shirts etc. EXCEPT if you're married. It's more secure.

So yeah, surveyed and fall in love with a few watches today.

This month's mission: SAVE UP A LOT OF MONEY TO BUY MY DREAM WATCH!

My target:

I'll dream of you tonight :)

Productive off days.

2011-05-05T23:16:00.005+08:00

What a productive off days! (I think)

I'm off for 4 days, until Saturday. I love May because I have a lot of off days! I think it's because when I was in Sarawak, I worked for more than 30 days without any off, so this month they replaced my off days.

:D :D Yeah yeah work was very tiring but the end result? Totally worth it, don't you think?

Okay so my off days this time was very productive because I'm spring cleaning my room. Been put it on hold since forever. I don't remember when was the last time I clear up things in my room. I've been spring cleaning since yesterday and I am still not done! I found a lot of school stuff, from primary school. Can you believe it? No wonder it took so long for me to clear my room. I'll continue tomorrow, already filled 4 garbage bags so I think I'm done for tonight.

4 garbage bags and I still have a lot of junk in my room. Haish. And mind you, my room is not that big. I don't know how did I squeeze14 years worth of stuff in that room. Yes, stuff since I was standard 4.

Well anyways, another reason why I said my off days were productive is because I've been keeping tabs with all of the current movies! I always get left behind when it comes to movies.

So today I went to watch this:

Waaa it was awesome I tell you! I love the effects the most! And I love Natalie Portman. And of course, Thor himself: Chris Hemsworth. Don't really fancy him because he's a blondie. But his body is to die for! I like. Almost everyone watching the movie was literally gasping when he was topless. Ahahaha.

Well moving on. Tomorrow I'm watching another movie which I've been anxious about! Woohooo. Two movies in a row, two movie dates. What more can I ask for? (Haha okay bunyi pervert lak) :P :P

Anyways, have a good day dear readers! I know I will :)

Senyum!

2011-04-26T22:50:00.003+08:00

I went to the dentist today. It's called Smile. I feel good about the clinic just by hearing the name. Because it's Smileee! What's the first thing u remember when someone mentioned smile? Of course the mouth. And mouth? ---> TEETH!!!

And yes, I was all smiley when I enter the clinic.

I can't really remember when was the last time I went to see the dentist. I know it was during my uni days, at Pusat Kesihatan. That bloody Pusat Kesihatan.

It wasn't pleasant I tell you. I know it's free for the students but the doctors!!...they were really harsh man. I know my teeth needs a lot of cleaning to do at the time but don't take it on my teeth!

Well somehow, I think when they are cleaning my teeth, the tool they're using must've hurt my gums because not long after I stepped out of the Pusat Kesihatan, my gums were swollen. Quite badly.

To a point where I can't even chew a thing.

It hurts so bad, I have to take pain killer(s). And I am relying on the pain killers 100%. It wasn't good, I became addictive to that drug.

The pain was aching until I actually cried at night. (no kidding!)

I was deeply in pain, I can't even be bothered to make a hot nescafe to swallow the pills. I swallow it with plain water. Which is RARE!

So after that incident, I was a lil bit traumatic with dentist. But I know I can't escape from seeing them because I have a very unhealthy gums & I need to do scaling every 6 months.

But yes, I think it was 1 year after that when I've decided to go to the dentist. (I think that's because my office cover our dental as well.) So it's gonna be such a waste, right?

The doctor was nice but I can't blame her for nagging at me when she saw my teeth right?

Let me recall back her words where it feels like there's a dagger sticking out of my heart!

Scene 1

Her: Bila last pergi cuci gigi?

Me: Emmmm... Masa university dulu.

Her: How long ago was thattttt?

Me: @?!&*% (cover balik) Ahaha. Tak lama lah. Last year? (Tipu sangat. Last year, convo! Pergi scaling, before practical lagi!)

*cuci**cuci**cuci**cuci**cuci**

Her: U sure baru setahun tak cuci? Macam dah 5 tahun!!

Me: (Dagger #1) Hihihihi.

Scene 2

Her: Gusi u teruk. Bleeding.

Me: Yeah, bleeding teruk kan.

Her: Teruk sangat. Macam gusi orang umur 80 tahun!

Me: (Dagger #2) ---speechless terus----

Anyhoo, mulut dia memang laser but she's nice. Surprisingly, I really like her! Haha.

And I have to go to the dentist again in 3 weeks time to complete the whole scaling process.

It's not done yet, obviously. Thanks to my overly bleeding gums!

But in the meantime, I can smileeeeeeeeeee like nobody's business! Hey, doktor tu siap polish my teeth tau! *shiny shiny*

:D :D :D

Strangers, again

2011-04-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

I noticed this video in Facebook. At first I was lazy to watch it coz the duration is too long but seeing a lot of my friends post this video, I guess there must be something special or something so true bout it, right?

Well, I'm not in a relationship right now hence I'm not in any stage for the time being. But I used to be and every stage in this video, I guess every couple experience the same thing before it went down the drain. Same goes with me.

And I always wonder, how about the married couple? Is it not the same? Will they or will they not experience this as well? If it happens when we're married, that is scary. Makes me think that I am so not ready to get married and if one day I've found someone, it's gonna take one hell of a long time for me to totally trust that person before take it to the next level.

*sigh*

But whatever it is, all in all, the good thing about life and being a person who has a belief, I totally believe in "jodoh" and that every person has it's own partner. Hold on to that is enough for me :)

But still, no harm done in watching this video and speculate right? So to those who wasn't aware about this video in Facebook, go and watch it people. It's a good video with a great message and I love the story telling part. Makes u reminisce every single stage in your relationship and ask yourself "Do I experience this? And that?" :) It's a good one.

Honey, I'm home!!

2011-04-19T02:21:00.002+08:00

I'm home baby, I AM HOMEEEEE!

Omaigod, it was like...so surreal. One month+ journey has come to an end. Can you believe it? I still can't.

I've been waiting for today to come since Day 1. And now, it's over. Our Sayang Sarawak programme...is over. It's a wrap!

Oh so happy.

Happy to be filled with happiness everyday and being surrounded with amazing and chaotic and hilarious people throughout.

Happy to have loads of new friends that I love and cherish.

Happy to have collected great & wonderful experience from our journey.

THANK YOU EVERYONE (All Sarawakians & Sayang Sarawak crews) for making my journey in Kuching a jolly good one! :D

Love you guys so much. And can't wait to bump with everyone at the office...very very soon! :)

From Sarawak, With Love :)

2011-04-08T13:15:00.006+08:00

It's been a while, I know. I refused to give excuses but easy to say, I don't have time to update.

I'm sorry, blog. For abandoning you...again.

To those who doesn't know (I'm sure a lot of my friends know bout this through Facebook), I'm at Kuching, Sarawak now. Since March 15th. I'm here until April 18th, insyaAllah.

I'm doing a special one-month programme called "Sayang Sarawak". It's aired everyday on the evenings on TV3. Life here is quite hectic, a lot of things to do. But there are times where we have our free time (like today). No one is in the workstation area, I think because today is Friday. Most of them will probably come in after Jumaat prayers.

I'm alone in the room, and was browsing the Facebook while doing some research. Then this blog came to mind. Aaaa I miss blogging. Loads to tell! But I can't think now. Coz I'm typing this in a public room, no privacy hehe. That's why I can't think.

But one thing for sure, I'm exhausted. I'm physically and mentally drained. Being here for a month, working everyday, 24/7, no off days at all....of course I'm tired. I am not strong you know. I'm weak! But I don't want to show my weakness, considering I'm the most junior here and I have to prove to them that I deserve to be here.

I can do this. Yes, I can.

I have 3 days off once I'm home. I'll spare a day just to update this blog..for the memories :)

I miss a lot of people! I was homesick the first week, but now, I'm okay. I miss my mother the most. Always get teary-eyed whenever I think of her.

I'm counting the days now. 10 days to go :) But now, I'm living my life in Sarawak to the fullest. Yeah!

Take care everyone!~

**Oh, my first sister, Kak Zizi is going to London (not sure when, maybe tomorrow or today or yesterday! I can't remember). Envy her like a lot! But that's okay, I'm confident that I will go there someday. Amin :) Take care and have fun Kak Zizi! :D

Positive Month.

2011-03-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

Okay, si Intan Amir dah bagi komen kenapa aku asyik post emosi je kat blog. *sentap*

Haha babe! I was sick la that day. Nausea leads to no appetite which leads to stomach cramp..a bad one. Now I know apa perasaannya jadi orang tua bongkok tiga coz the whole day I had to walk like that. I can't stand straight. Sumpah merana.

And the reason why I let it out in here is because that time, I felt lonely. Tak tau nak mengadu kat siapa & there's a lot of things going on that didn't go well as planned. And semua orang macam ada agenda sendiri, and I was left with no agenda at all, I was a bit depressed..I'll admit that.

I was a bit sad, for that day.

But now, dah okay. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Mama duk risau about my cramps sebab dah melarat sampai esoknya, sampai kena text editor nak bagitau akan masuk office lambat coz I was unable to get up. Sakit gila perut.

Tapi memikirkan my English editor was all alone that day, no one to help him with the stories, so terpaksa la gagahkan jugak. Nasib baik masa tu weekend. Tak rushing sangat la.

Mama risau sebab baca suratkhabar Utusan bahagian Kesihatan tu ada feature pasal appendix, and dia dah fikir bukan-bukan.

But I have to admit as well that the symptoms which was listed out in the feature, I had the same thing that day. So couldn't blame my mother for being worried, right?

But thankfully, the rest of the day in the office I felt fine. So I don't think there's a need to go to the clinic.

Haha well, just to point out that, I don't really like to post emotional stuff in here. But honestly, there are times when I feel so lonely and no one there lending a helping hand. So I have this blog to thank.

Of course it's frustrating coz whenever possible I'll always try my best to be there for my friends. And when I need them the most, they're not around. Well, can't blame them as well for having stuff to do and me with no life.

Although it is tiring but I was happy to get this month's schedule. I don't have a lot of off days and I'm glad. I don't get a lot of 3-days-straight off days and it's a good thing. At least I don't have to plan what to do with my off days, coz obviously whatever I've planned, it's not gonna work out. So that's fine.

Yup, this month gonna be such a hassle. Working 5-6 days straight with only a day off. But hey, look at the bright side. I'll buried myself with workload and I know I'm gonna enjoy it. Not gonna complain anything. This month is a busy month. With 2 by-election and all.

But, I'm off on Friday and I already know what I'm gonna do. To do my passport. Haha. Same old, same old the loser me. Left with no passport, left out an opportunity. Takpe la, mungkin takde rezeki. I'm sure I'll have my chance in the future. Just be positive! :)

wasted.

2011-02-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

Don't feel so good today.

Nausea & wanna throw up. Don't know why.

But I noticed that this always happens whenever I feel down or frustrated or depressed bout something.

Like today, yes, I was a bit frustrated with someone. And tadaa! Terus rasa tak best.

Not good, huh?

Sarah, you need to take a chill pill. This is not good.

No no, scratch that. I hate pills. I need to get myself a McD's vanilla milkshake. Yes, that's more like it :)

ps: my 3 days off has come to an end, and it's all such a waste. wasted. big time.

Chris Medina FTW.

2011-02-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

I always get teary-eyed when I see this video. He's such a sweet guy :)

Although he didn't make it through Top 24, but I'd say he made such a good impression bout himself and he got the talent. I'm sure plenty of record companies are dying to give him a deal! :D

Always fresh in my heart.

2011-02-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Thank you to Ema Fadilah Ahmad for introducing this song to me back in Part 1 Diploma, 2005.

Since then, I always have a soft spot for this song :)

GTH.

2011-02-21T22:57:00.001+08:00

Persetankan semua.

Aku malas nak kisah lagi.

Friends forever and ever babes :)

2011-02-16T20:07:00.004+08:00

Yes, it sucks BIG time to have a failed relationship. Failed to maintain the sparks until it went down the drain...

But, despite all that, I thank God everyday to have my beautiful friends around me. Friends who are with me for such long long years.

These are my best friends. First met them when I was in Standard 4, friendship grew day by day until now. It's been 14 years now :) Who would've thought.

Afidah: My 4 Kekwa classmate. The cute one.

Intan: First met her in 2002. The beautiful one.

Farah: Also my 4 Kekwa classmate :) The gorgeous one.

Childhood friends. They're my soulmate :)

And these are my UiTM sweethearts. With me for almost 6 years now. Love all of them dearly.

Aby: Met her during the Masscomm interview

Five of us.

Fatin's wedding at Johor :)

The girl next to me is Ina. When this picture was taken, she was pregnant. She's a proud mother to a beautiful baby girl now. And it's Fatin's turn in the group to be pregnant. InsyaAllah, she'll be in labor in July. After her? Yet to be determined :P

I am blessed to have friends like them. Yes, different group. I like to acknowledge them as my Subang friends and UiTM friends. But this bunch of people are the closest one to me.

I know sometimes I think too much about my failed relationship and how sucks it is to not have a guy in my life. But that's not the end of the world. At least, I have my beautiful girls with me. My friends are everything to me, and I can't live without a friend.

However, I can live without a boyfriend.

Prioritize. Friends are important. I will never take each of you for granted :)

A tribute for the most lovable guy I've ever met :)

2011-02-15T18:49:00.004+08:00

Whoa. It's February already. If you are so diligent, you can browse through my previous posts specifically February last year, and you will know why this month is such an emotional month for me.

I think it's too soon for February to come, don't you think?

Well anyways, this will be the last time I'm talking bout this, so here goes...

I was happy on 15th February last two years, because that time I've found someone.

He's special in my life. He started off as my friend and became someone more important in my life after that.

He was the first guy I dared to call him my best friend, coz he listened to my problems and he gave honest and great advices.

He constantly tried to make me feel good about myself. And that's a crucial quality that I need in a friend.

He was my best friend. And after that, he became my other half which I loved so dearly.

We had a lot of fun together, we shared a lot of great memories together and everything else together.

He was my first serious relationship. He was the first guy I introduced to my family, so obviously it meant something. He was my first long term boyfriend.

All of that first-timers, make it so much more difficult to forget.

And so, not every happy moment lasts right? Same goes with our love story. It didn't last.

I guess it all started when both of us have our own career, and everything got ruined day by day.

Until we've decided to end it. And a lot of stuff happened along the way which made it harder to save this relationship.

Honestly, I haven't fully moved on yet. It was hard. The first few months of the break up, I was still clinging to him, still clinging with our memories.

Until I realized, I had enough of torturing my feelings. It's time to start a new life, open a new book.

The new year was a start of my new life. I've landed a great job, my dream job, and I'm not gonna ruin it. It's time to distract my mind from thinking of this break up and focus on my career. I want to make everyone proud, obviously.

But of course, up until now I still think of him once in a while. Although we don't really talk anymore but I'll always remember all of the good deeds he had done for me all this time.

So yes, this past year a lot of stuff happened. From happy stuff to awful stuff.

U wanna know what's the sucky part? It's that I used to believe that if you date someone from the same field, you'll be safe from all of the misunderstanding fights. Because obviously, you'll understand each other's work. But I was wrong, it was still horrible. So currently, I don't know what to believe anymore. That sucks.

Anyway, although I no longer have a guy best friend and a boyfriend or even just a friend who always carved a smile on my face and who gave excellent advices, but that's okay. At least, I had you...although just for a moment.

Thank you for everything. Sorry for everything. I think I won't be able to graduate my studies if you didn't walk into my life. So I thank you, and I owe you one.

This post, is a tribute for you :) You are a wonderful guy, you are a perfect gentleman without a doubt. I'm a lucky woman to have you in my life, even for just a short while.

You will have a successful career ahead, I'm sure. Cheers.

Salary.

2011-02-09T13:17:00.003+08:00

You know, when we receive our first salary, everyone (and I mean, EVERYONE) kept on asking, "Bila nak open table ni?"

Everyone as in those people from work, family members and friends.

And me, being so excited to receive my first ever salary will reply, "Sure sure, nanti kita plan eh!" (dengan senyuman sampai ke telinga) At that time, I was feeling so happy, I feel like I wanna belanja the whole worlddd! (U know what I mean?) heh.

But when all the excitement subsides, that's when reality strikes and I realized, "Wehh ramai gilaaa aku setuju nak open table niiii!"

By the time dah habis belanja semua orang, duit dalam bank pun dah habis jugak.

Cannot la like that right? Hehehehehe sorry korang, next time open table kays. Bankrap makcik gini :D

And have you ever experience the same thing as I have where when we've been working our ass off from the previous month and when finally we received our salary, we want to allocate some of that money to reward ourselves? Pernah buat tak or am I the only one?

Alah, like when we've been working hard on our assignments specifically group assignments coz it's the toughest, and when it's all over, of course you'll have this urgency to go out, relax, be free and reward yourself with something right? Like makan besar or shopping or pergi karaoke, those kind of stuff. Ber-escapism. Right?

I haven't reward myself yet coz I've been stressing on ways to reward everyone else. So that's what I'm gonna do now. List down things that I wanna buy or what I need to buy and just spend it baby! :D

Don't look back.

(Banyak sangat baca buku Shopaholic lately which leads to me being very careful when spending haha) Bad influence to this non-shopaholic like moi :)

Rambling.

2011-01-31T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sarah memang kaki procrastinate yang terpaling hebat!

Haritu pernah berazam la bila dapat cuti panjang (3 hari je pun), nak rajinkan diri update blog yang dah bersawang ni.

Tapi nahhh!! Harini dah last day cuti, esok dah kerja baru terhegeh-hegeh nak post something.

Sebenarnya, semalam baru terkocoh-kocoh pergi bayar bil broadband yang dah 2 bulan tertunggak. Al maklum la, baru dapat gaji la katakan :) Woohoo!

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Puas hati rasa bila dapat bagi 1st gaji kat Mama and Bah :)

InsyaAllah, gonna do that every month. Ambil berkat.

Anyways, yang sebenarnya tengah takde idea nak blog pasal apa. Tengah rasa tak kreatif sekarang.

Esok kena rajin menyinggah diri kat TV3 lah. Nama pun 'Sumber Inspirasi' kan? :P

Anyways, idea tengah kering kontang, tak tau nak cerita pasal apa.

But whatever it is, so far, I'm happy with my life.

Also, I'm happy with my job. Menyibukkan diri dengan kerja cukup menggembirakan hati ini :)

Syukur syukur, I've never felt happier.

Turning point in my life maybe? To forget whatever in the past and embrace the future.

The last few months were tough and I'm glad it's over :)

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah SWT.

Layang-layang

2011-01-05T00:01:00.006+08:00

Hari Sabtu yang lalu, yakni pada tahun baru, kami membuat planning yang teramatlah random, iaitu pergi main layang-layang!

Myself, Farah, Afidah dan Asrul (Intan takde, *sedih*) pergi ke Selayang untuk aktiviti riadah kami.

Secara jujurnya, saya tak pernah main layang-layang. Serius, seumur hidup tak pernah. Jadi bila orang ajak ni, saya excited lah :D

Yang kelakarnya, the whole time masa kami dalam perjalanan dari Subang, Farah dan Afidah duk berharaaapppp sangat tak hujan kat Selayang. Sebab kat Subang dah hujan lebat. Dan sepanjang dalam kereta saya duk berkomunikasi dengan rakan-rakan di KL, tanya info cuaca :D

Syukur Alhamdulillah, sampai sahaja di Taman Layang-Layang, matahari masih ada. Teruja tak terkata semua orang! Kecuali Asrul, dia maintain cool je.

Masa tengah berjalan nak beli layang-layang, hujan dah mula turun, tapi renyai la.

Dari penuh gila tempat tu, ramai orang dah berpusu-pusu balik dan kami, baru sampai. Loser sekejap rasa.

Tapi sebab renyai je, kami bantaikan saje! Dengan semangat berkobar-kobar pergi teman Farah dan Asrul beli layang-layang.

(Saya & Afidah tak beli sebab ingatkan kalau nak terbangkan layang-layang kena ada 2 orang baru menjadi. Jadi ingat nak tolong diorang terbangkan, pastu switch turn la)

Tapi rupanya, tak payah.

Sebab tempat tu memang dah berangin, tak payah lari pun layang-layang dah boleh terbang tinggi.

Huhu frustnya....tapi takpe.

Sebab, kedua-dua layang-layang tu berjaya terbang tinggi!

Farah punya berbentuk gajah warna biru dengan belalai yang panjang, dan diberi nama 'Lala'.

Asrul punya pula bentuk jet pejuang dengan ekor yang berpintal-pintal. No name.

Tapi lepas hampir sejam, masa saya tengah makan aiskrim, Farah tengah main layang-layang dan Afidah tengah sibuk ambil gambar, entah macam mana tali layang-layang Farah terlepas.

Farah cuba kejar, tapi tak sempat.

Farah dan Afidah pergi cari layang-layang tu sampai keluar dari taman tapi dah tak jumpa. Agak sedih la, sebab siap dah bagi nama. And layang-layang tu memang one of a kind.

So sebab layang-layang pun dah takde, kami pun membawa diri pergi ke tasik berdekatan. Dan perghhh cantik gila weiiii! Sebab masa tu matahari nak terbenam, cantik sangat :) Kami pun duduk la mengadap tasik yang indah sambil makan Mamee yang Farah beli. Epic!

Overall, walaupun layang-layang hilang, we had fun. Best sangat buat sesuatu yang out of the norms, selain lepak-lepak minum petang semua tu. Dan haruslah kami nak pergi lagi! This time, I want to fly my own kite :D :D

So now, I shall let you enjoy the pictures below. Cheers!

Ini la tasiknya :)

Main gamble je baring, pastu badan gatal-gatal.

Rumput tu tajaaammmm!

Me, Farah, Afidah.

Ice cream :)

Kanan: Lala; Kiri: Jet

Asrul terbangkan jet ekor pintalnya

Ni masa depa duk fokus membeli layang-layang

Hujan ni tau!

Ehh sedondon pulak dengan payung.

Wheeee! :D

Hey Spidey :)

Itu layang-layang tau, bukan ikan keli.

Mood Harimau Malaya tetap adaaaa!

Convo pix!

2011-01-02T04:24:00.003+08:00

From my Mom :)

Da rose!

Tada! Officially a Degree holder.

First row peeps!

With Amai. She's with me throughout my Uni days :)

My classmate, Fariza

Byeee! :D

The Ugly & Hideous Truth.

2010-12-30T04:56:00.004+08:00

The real truth is, the past few days, I wasn't entirely myself.

Usually, when I feel gloomy, I will put on my plastic face. Which is:

On the outside, I seemed cheerful and laughter all the way but on the inside I was faking it.

I wasn't feeling cheerful at all actually.

But this time, I couldn't be bothered to fake a smile or crack a joke or make a conversation if I don't feel like it.

That is why during that period I didn't entertain any calls or certain texts because I don't feel like covering my real emotions. I'm sick of it.

For once, I want people to know that (at that time) I. AM. NOT. OKAY.

A few of my friends knew there's something wrong with me and they were concerned but I don't feel like explaining to them.

I am so sorry if I was unreachable, friends.

And with that huge amount of emotion, a huge amount of consequences occurred.

Which leads to me getting a series of non-stop headache for 1 whole week, no appetite and nausea everytime I consumed any kind of food.

I shared about my sickness on Twitter and my friend Zawani gave me one hell of an amazing tip.

Which is:

Drink Vanilla Coke and my nausea will be gone!

And surprisingly, it works! Thank you Zawani! :D

Now I always have Vanilla Coke stocked up in my fridge. Awesome!

After suffered all of those stuff, I realized whatever I felt, it wasn't worth it.

Enough is enough man. Why should I punish myself? Why do I let myself to be punished?

I don't deserve this, and I want to give my body and my mind a break.

It's time to let go of all of the sufferings.

Don't think so hard (which is my weakness since..ever!)

Just be Happy cause I deserve it.

And always Believe in any possibilities.

Does it sound ancient? I know I've just turned 23 last week and I think my mental strength grows with it. For the first time since my birthday last week, I'm happy to be 23! Heh.

Sadness and being depressed will come to me once in a while, I can assure that and I'm totally ready with it.

But I think it's normal to feel that way. It takes time to heal.

And I hope when I've started working, these wounds will be healed and my heart will be mended.

InsyaAllah :)

Quarter-cured face.

My future. Hope it lasts. Amin.

My Awesome Degree Convocation :))

2010-12-28T04:13:00.003+08:00

28.11.2010

I will always remember that date, cause it was my convocation day.

Who would've thought, I've graduated (quite) successfully for my Degree and I'm ecstatic!

That day was definitely special :) A day to remember.

Looking back during my diploma convocation, I was a bit frustrated because I don't snap pictures with friends that much. It's Friday and people can't stay long because they need to go to Friday prayers. And in my case, I also can't stay long because my sisters had to go to work.

Quite disappointing, yeah, but at that time I knew I still have another convocation and oh I will make sure it's gonna be awesome!

And it was awesome. Although by the time our convocation ceremony ended it was raining cats and dogs but still, it was awesome.

You wanna know why?

Because my whole family was there. Okay, not exactly the whole family, minus my brother but he can be excused because he's in Kedah. But other than him, my family was there.

Yes, my mother came! My dad too. And my mom was inside the hall that day with my sister, Dee. I'm so excited. I'm not gonna spill in here but whoever knows me enough will surely share the same excitement that I felt when I stressed out that MY MOTHER CAMEEE!!

And yeah quite a few of my friends were excited for me when they knew :)

And you wanna know another reason why my convocation day was awesome?

Because. I. Received. FLOWERS!

(like duh you would say because it's a convocation, people gave flowers right? But I know my family, they would rather gave me toys or bears with graduation hats than giving me flowers. Especially fresh ones, because they don't lasts.)

Yeah, I totally get that. I'm not exactly a typical girl who love fresh flowers because I know it will die anyways, right? But somehow just because it's my convocation day I specifically told my family that I want FLOWERS! Because it will look good in pictures. haha (and that's the only reason)

Plus point, my MOTHER gave me fresh carnations WITH a Minnie Mouse teddy bear WITH graduation hats :) Talk about a complete set huh? My mother, she's the best!

And I received gifts from my family members as well i.e fake but very pretty flowers and lots and lots and lots of mini teddy bears.

Gosh, I am so not bragging. Please don't feel like I'm bragging by telling you all of these details. It's just that I don't receive presents or gifts that much, you know. So just share my excitement yeah? :)

And I love being a journalism student. Again, you wanna know why?

Because we were the first major (MC221) being called on stage. And my number was 12. And I was placed at the very first row, and the stage are right in front of me.

So I had a really good view of those who were on stage.

But the sucky part of having your name called among the earliest was I had to sit and wait through the whole ceremony. And sitting at the first row seriously not helping. Imagine, the dean, the vice-chancellor, the pro chancellor, and all of the lecturers are in front of me. So we kinda have to behave ourselves and sit with absolute manner.

That sucks and by the end of the ceremony I could barely feel my ass. Literally.

But anyways, I had a great time. I snap pics with (I think) everyone. And that's a great thing of hiring my very own personal photographer hehe. The word 'hiring' is not appropriate because I didn't pay him a single cent :P But thank you so much yea to my personal photographer, and for the roses as well.

Also thanks a bunch to my bestfriends Afidah and Farah who came altogether with Asrul and Dzarul. Thank you for the present Fie and thank you Farah for belanja-ing me dinner :)

I had a super great time!

And 28.11.2010 was indeed a magical and fun-filled day for me.

Keyword: AWESOME!

PS: Pics will be uploaded later, or maybe I'll create a new post just for the pictures. I'm too tired now, heee :)

I will.

2010-12-04T01:34:00.002+08:00

I will spend some time and blog about:

My Degree Convocation (28th Nov)
The End of My JPEC Training (30th Nov)

With pictures, of course :)

I will blog about this. I will I will I will.

But not today nor tomorrow. Maybe next week? I will try.

I am not lazy!! I still remember My February Resolution. It's just that, the timing is not right.

I'm not giving excuses!! Trust me. Trust me.

I will blog about this. This is a huugeeeee matter to me. A turning point in my life. It's a big deal.

I will I will I will I will blog about this 2 things :)

Just one more day.

2010-11-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow will be my last day at ntv7 (technically). Wow, we're there for almost 2 months. Who would've thought huh? Even I can't believe it.

I don't know if I'm happy, or sad. Sometimes, I wish I could close my eyes and when I open it, it will already turned December. And sometimes, I wish I could stop the time and everything around me will stop moving, just so that I can be where I am now.

I am happy there. Although not all the time happy, but most of the time, yes :)

I am very much in disbelief of this fact. The fact that we're almost reaching the end. The ultimate finish line.

Again, WOW.

At times, when I think about tomorrow and what will my future looks like later, I'll stop myself and ignore the thoughts. At times, I am in denial that I'll be free, as free as a bird after this.

But tonight, while I was waiting for the red light to turn green, I was listening to the radio and I heard this song from All American Rejects. There are this particular line that made me smile, automatically, unintentionally....seriously. It was,

"It ends tonight. It ends tonight."

And at that point of the song, I felt serene. Relieved. At peace.

Although I don't want the working part at ntv7 to end, but I do want to end my training with Media Prima..officially, successfully :) InsyaAllah.

Although it may seemed easy, but nobody but US knows how much difficult it is. To shoulder other people's expectation where of course they expect the very best. Expectation from families because of course they want to hear good news. And to shoulder the programme's name - JPEC where of course the people out there wants to see if we're good enough.

It is tiring and also stressful, but I feel appreciated to shoulder this huge amount of expectation from people.

And I'm thankful, to be given this precious opportunity to work there, to produce stories for the news, to meet all of the wonderful people there. It's priceless.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Tamatlah riwayat.

2010-11-17T23:03:00.003+08:00

I AM SO DEAD!

(dead apa?)

DEAD MEAT!!!!!

-_-'

Omg omg omg banyaknya kerja tak siap lagiiiii! Omg omg omg sempat ke tak nak siapkan ni??? Omg omg omg I don't think I'll survive this battlefield!

Somebody can just kill me now!

Negatif.

2010-10-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

Dah hampir sebulan tak update blog.

Entri sebelumnya aku dibayangkan seperti sangat lemah dan tak bersemangat kan?

Mesti ramai rasa, bila dah sebulan menyepi, entri kali ini akan diserikan dengan kegembiraan pula.

Tapi, jujur cakap lah,

Takde apa-apa perubahan yang positif pun sejak sebulan yang berlalu ni.

Masih sama.

Bermasalah sentiasa.

Muram selalu.

Dah tak ingat bila kali terakhir senyum dan gelak dengan ikhlas.

Yup, sorry kawan-kawan.

Selama ni aku ceria dan bergelak ketawa dengan korang, itu semua palsu.

Sekarang, siapa berani cakap aku tak pandai berlakon?

*mengeluh*

This Love. This Life.

2010-09-16T15:50:00.002+08:00

This blog - I shared everything in here.

My happiness, my sadness, my joyous and proudest moments, my dilemmas - everything.

This blog - it's with me for 3 years now.

My study life, my love and out-of-love life, my intern life, my training life - everything.

I poured a lot of stuff in here.

Hardships in life are everywhere. Same goes to the obstacles faced - they're everywhere.

I may have been bored with all of this drama, but I know that I can't run away from it. It'll always stuck with me - also with every human being in this world.

I used to lead a very boring life - no ups and downs, no dramas, no dilemmas etc.

But now, my life gets more and more interesting by the minute. Doesn't matter if it's happy stuff or sad stuff.

And now, I'm leading such a massive difficulties in my life. I'm sad most of the time, being left heart broken and burdened with all of this crisis and uncertainties - which most of the time sucks, a lot.

But I'm dealing with it, day by day. I'll be okay with it, eventually. (I think)

On second thought, maybe not now. I think it's healthy for me to start mourning and crying my heart out, just to let it all out of my chest. Rather than keeping it all inside, not knowing when will it burst.

Move on? Maybe later.

You, thanks for the memories. Thanks for the experience. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to feel this wonderful feeling, all this while. And, thanks for willing to be a part in my life, even for just a short while.

From the bottom of my heart, Thank You.

inner crisis

2010-09-12T01:15:00.002+08:00

It's almost mid September now.

Wow, 3 weeks had passed. How time flies. And within that time, a lot of things happened. A lot of painful things.

I don't know if I've done anything wrong until I'm being treated this way.

Am I not good enough to people? Am I cruel to them? Have I hurt anybody?

If I have, well then, trust me please, I'm paying my price now. One hell of a price.

I always wonder, don't I deserve a happiness? I used to be very happy with my life, where is it now? Why won't happiness stick with me?

Again, I ask myself, have I done something massive which leads to me experiencing a series of sadness in my life? Have I?

Honestly speaking, NOBODY have EVER treated me nicely. Seriously.

I'm always being placed as the last resort.

I'm forgettable.

I'm not worth it.

I don't deserve all of this.

Why must life be so cruel, unfair and full of hatred?

Can I like give up with this life and choose to have another life instead? Seriously.

Astaghfirullah.

2010-09-10T14:27:00.002+08:00

Salam Aidilfitri buat semua umat Islam.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

Just so you know.

2010-08-27T00:50:00.002+08:00

One thing you need to know about me: I HATE flooding my blog talking about work.

I seriously hate it.

But looking on at my previous posts, yep, work work work was all I talk about.

Sorry, didn't mean to. It's just that my life, currently, revolves around my work.

I spent 80% each day in the office. Sometimes 90%.

My job is all I think about, all the time. 24 hours. I can't help it.

And here I am again, in this blog, talking about (what else?), My Job.

Arghhhh, stress! I hate doing something that I know I hate doing it.

But one more thing that you need to know about me is: I HATE sharing sessions with people.

Ok, it's not exactly pure hate, but I'm actually not good at it.

So instead of having a sharing session with someone which I'm not good at, I'm doing my very own version of sharing session with this blog. (Just for the sake of needing to let it out)

I know, lame huh?

But the good part is, if you've been reading this blog religiously since I first started back in 2007, you are actually one step closer to know the REAL Sarah Abdullah.

The real me. The original thoughts of mine. My fear. My dislikes. My worries. My happiness. Everything.

It's not that knowing me well is such a big deal, but if you are a frequent reader of mine, that means you actually care, right?

Gosh, I'm being lame again. Or absurd.

Like Kak Wawa (our editor) said, "Always be humble. Remember our nawaitu, that's very important."

Yes, I will always remember that. And positivity all the way, InsyaAllah.

On-job training.

2010-08-21T00:20:00.002+08:00

I am doing my on-job training now, since yesterday.

Honestly speaking, it is so tiring but at the same time, I'm loving the new experience.

All the way through Ramadhan, me and the rest of the JPEC team will have to break our fast in the office because we have to stay here until the main news ended.

It's not exactly compulsory but that just shows your level of dedication in this job. And since I don't have any problem with going home late, I stayed.

In fact, all of us did.

For your information, we have our own JPEC blog. Actually, we are required to create one.

So for our on-job training, since we have 26 people altogether in the team, each one of us have to post about our day. One people each day.

So I've just shared my second day in news room in the JPEC blog, and I'm so lazy to repeat the same thing in here.

If you are an amazing stalker, which I know you are, go and Google our blog. (That is if you want to read my experience lah, if not, then no need).

Goodnight everyone. It's sleeping time and I want to have my own sweet sweet rest :)

Sorry for the short post. So tired now.

After a month.

2010-08-15T13:34:00.002+08:00

It has been almost a month since I join this programme.

Almost a month we've been crammed in the HR Training Room, learning a lot of things about the broadcasting and journalism world.

Almost a month my FB has been flooded with a lot of tagged photos of our journey.

What happen after this?

After one month, it's time for our on-job training and we'll be segregated to different TV channels (TV3, ntv7, 8tv or TV9).

Oh how nervous I am.

It's like going through internship all over again! And having to prove to everyone that I'm capable and good enough for this.

Sorry to say, but that is so tiring.

I dare to say that the idea of quitting had occurred in each one of our minds.

But it was blocked with a lot of positive words poured at us by the trainers.

So we stayed and will always think positive.

And I am not a quitter. I used to be one, yes..but not anymore and never will be again.

Haih. Come on strength! Come on power! Come on high self-esteem! Come to momma pleaseee!

(few minutes later)

Yes, I believe in myself. I'd gone through worse and I still stand strong.

I should do the same with this one.

Btw, Happy Ramadhan everyone.

Our Jeram Besu trip :)

2010-08-08T22:41:00.005+08:00

Looking back at my previous post, I know I dreaded going to Jeram Besu. But at the same time, I know I'll have a wonderful time there.

I was wrong.

I regretted dreading to go there. Because myself and the rest of team had a splendid time! I dreaded to go home actually, all of us did.

We were treated like family - all of the friendly, warm and helpful people, the magnificent food (seriously), the breathtaking view, and the fresh fresh air.

Once in a while, I needed that kind of environment. All of them are so kind and generous. Although 4 days was so short but we bonded together beautifully.

And of course, the experience was priceless. I did things that I never did before, and I overcome my fear - my fear of heights, my fear of water just because I don't know how to swim.

Although I was the slowest person to get through all of that, but at the end of the day, I did it. All of it. And I'm proud of myself.

I feel indebted to all of the wonderful people (JPEC team & Jeram Besu team) for being so patient and for helping me throughout these 4 days.

Again, I had a great time. Up until today, we never shut up about how fun it was there. I miss all of the people there, and the environment.

InsyaAllah, if I may and when I have the opportunity, I wanna go there again :)

Yang penting, boleh melantak durian banyak-banyak!

Abseiling. That's not me up there btw.

With Capt Hasnol - the funniest captain ever!

We did it! With JPEC team + Jeram Besu team

Celebrate Sri, Syawal & Priya's birhtday during karaoke night.

ps: I'll upload more photos of our great memories there later. It's not with me yet :)

Teambuilding.

2010-08-02T00:22:00.006+08:00

Off to Jeram Besu, Pahang for our teambuilding session.

Honestly speaking, I'm seriously dreading for it. But I'm positive that I'll have the best time of my life there. It's all about experience, and having fun :)

Wish me luck and pray for me! See you all in 4 days!

2010-07-25T01:44:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is the time where everything will make a difference.

In life. Perspective. And Friendship.

How I wish I'm important enough. To you.

Masa depan.

2010-07-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

Tiga bulan lagi.

Saya tahu sebelum ni dah ada posting yang tertulis 'Tiga bulan lagi."

Dan saya juga tahu, seorang wartawan tak boleh ada repetition bila menulis berita.

Tapi saya mahu buat peringatan pada diri sendiri, bahawa masa yang tinggal hanyalah Tiga bulan lagi.

Sarah, tolong hargai masa yang ada itu.

Bila banyak hari-hari dah berlalu, kadang-kadang saya rasa saya dah banyak merugikan masa. Merugikan masa dengan melebihkan hal-hal lain yang lebih tertumpu pada diri sendiri.

Padahal masa itu terus berjalan. Dan masa yang tinggal dah berkurangan.

Bagaimana dengan saya?

Thursday.

2010-07-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

BUSY GILE DOH!

dan schedule teramat sangatlah pack.

But I'm luvin every single of it :)

Ilmu sangat berharga bukan?

ps: Will update this blog on the weekends only. That's the only time I don't have any classes :)

pps: I miss a lot of people! I hope they miss me too :D

Just believe.

2010-07-15T22:37:00.003+08:00

Please ignore my previous emotional post. Those type of feelings will come and go. Today is a brand new day, and I'm looking ahead with full positivity.

For the first time in the last few months of my jobless life, I've found the strength to drag myself to go for an interview. And so I did. It was 2 days ago, and waking up early morning was tough man! Considering I've gotten used to woke up quite late and have nothing to worry about.

The interview was quite tough. The questions they asked were mainly about current issues, and literally my mouth was hanging open! I was clueless. Clueless for this rusty old brain of mine.

But we've managed to answer every question successfully. As long as it does make sense!

They provided us with a lot of essays to write, IQ test, grammar test and some translations to do. With all of that need to be done, we stayed there from morning til 6pm. That was one heck of an interview!

But all of that, totally worth it. You wanna know why? Because I got the job :)

Okay okay, it's not exactly a job. It is actually a programme that will teach us how to be a good reporter. But whatever it is, I still count that as a job.

I'm happy, of course. Although it's nothing compared to my other friends who already have a proper job with really high salary, but who cares?

Yes, salary is important, but maybe it's not that important to me..for now.

Because I wanna improve myself first and then maybe I will consider on getting a higher salary.

But in the mean time, I'm happy with whatever I have now.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

I told you, kalau rezeki tu memang untuk kita, takkan ke mana punya. Kan?

;)

2010-07-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

Lima tahun usia persahabatan cukup diambil mudah oleh mereka.

Padahal, ia sungguh bermakna buat saya.

2010-07-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Mana pergi semua kawan-kawan yang dulu selalu ada waktu susah?

2010-07-09T21:19:00.002+08:00

Tiga bulan lagi.

Baking Life.

2010-06-30T15:10:00.002+08:00

OHH sungguh addicted main Baking Life! It's so freaking weird and I feel embarrassed of myself!

Gosh. I started to open my virtual bakery with only 5 friends playing but now I have 15 friends already! Haha gila.

Kalau Lina tahu ni, sure dah digelak-gelakkan. Coz she's the one persuaded me to play this thingy.

And me being all adult and matured, I said to her, "Ish, tak main lah game-game nih!"

And look at me now. Already level 18 baby :D HAHA.

And I already have my high-tech cash register which costs me 20,000 coins. Crazy eh?

I guess I'm connecting with my inner child (??).

Wtv, because I don't bake in actual life, just lemme enjoy life by baking in the virtual one. *grin*

2010-06-27T13:43:00.003+08:00

Quite a number of people always said to me that friends whom we met during our university days are the one that will always stick with us no matter what and they are our true friends. The friendship are not easily broken and it will last until our working days and so on.

I used to believe in that.

But now when I'm done with my studying era, as I recall back, there are so little of them that I can call my true friend now. So little.

I used to have a lot of friends who I truly loved and cherished. But not anymore.

They are still my friends, but it will never be the same.

I had fun during my Diploma days. I love every moment of it. I met a lot of wonderful people that time.

But during my Degree, those wonderful people turned out to be not that wonderful anymore.

Yes, I loathed every single bit of my Degree days. I made a lot of stupid mistakes which I shouldn't. I have a lot of regrets.

I shouldn't trust people easily. I shouldn't lend a helping hand to those who didn't deserve my help. I regretted it.

So, I'm bidding farewell now to the friendship that I loathed most.

Thanks for making my heart ache.

Not so much of a quickie update.

2010-06-23T01:34:00.002+08:00

I'm not lazy but apparently I couldn't find the proper words to talk about.

There are a lot of things happen in my life, but currently I'm not in the mood to share to everyone about it.

And you know what happens, once I've been delaying to blog about some things, I will most probably won't talk about it at all.

But just to update one thing that I've mentioned in a couple of my previous posts: Yes, my parents have arrived safe and sound last Tuesday (that is last week).

And how happy I am to welcome them home. Considering the next few days after their arrival, my housing area has been experiencing a series of blackout in the middle of the night. And how thankful I am because I did not experience any blackout scene when they're still in Tganu and I was alone at home. Phewwww!

Anyhoo, it's the World Cup fever now and I am a true Spain fan!

How upset I was when they lost to Switzerland but of course I regained my confidence when they beat Honduras. And now, only one team left for them to beat which is Chile and they'll book their spot into the 2nd round.

Here's to HOPE. Cheers!

2010-06-12T14:41:00.003+08:00

All that waiting, ain't worth it.

But still, I am so over the moon with my result.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Diploma? Check.

Degree? Hell yeah check!

My result? With flying colors where purple conquered most of the colors :)

UiTM, Usaha Takwa Muliaaaa.

2010-06-11T16:47:00.002+08:00

You know what I hate the most about my uni?

I. Hate. The. Freakin. Website.

It's so slow! Whenever we have to login to the system to register our subjects or to check our results, we will always be entertained by "Internet Explorer cannot display the webpage."

Okay fine, UiTM have a lot of students, reaching to hundreds of thousands of people. But if you want to have an intake that huge, you have to prepare the system effectively.

I've been trying to check my result since yesterday, from evening til 3.30am! But still, failed.

Same goes with today - from morning up til now. And I am so frustrated. I'm so bored clicking the 'Refresh' button for the umpteenth time and still get the same answer, "IE cannot blah blah blah".

I love my uni with all my heart, but after 5 years of going through the same process, I'm sick of it.

And and, my friends are able to check theirs, what's the problem with my freakin Internet? I know I can ask someone else to check for me, but I refused.

Because..this is my final semester. The End of my Degree era. I want to embrace the moment of checking my result for the last time and I don't want to ruin that by asking somebody else to check mine.

But but this??! Ugh.

And don't you dare tell me to 'Bersabarlah' and 'Cuba lagi' and say that 'all the waiting, will be worth it'. Crap.

My mother who is in Tganu right now is also very eager to know my result. And of course I'm excited to give her a call and blurted out my result. But, I can't.

Benciiiiii engkauuuuuu Student Portal Gerbang Maklumat Pelajar. Bungok.

One whole week. Are you ready?

2010-06-09T07:54:00.002+08:00

Wow. I woke up so early today, and it's just so surreal :P

I slept around 3.30am coz I watched Australia's Next Top Model with Dee right before that. And I woke up around 6.30am, due to some difficulties hehehe. (hanya aku yang tahu) And I failed to resume my sleeping since.

Out of all days, why must it be today? I need a lot of energy today.

My parents are going back to Tganu this afternoon. Approximately after lunch and Zuhur prayer.

Moi? No. I'm not tagging along, and I don't know why. I guess I'm lazy to endure the long journey. So I'll be staying with Dee - just the 2 of us - for the whole week!

But knowing Dee and her working schedule, I'll be home alone most of the time.

Scary okay, scaryyyyyy~

I know I should start making plans with friends so that they could accompany me when I'm alone (preferably at night, coz I'm braver when there's sunlight), but I don't know. I still don't have any plans for the whole week!

I know I shouldn't be whining like a baby. And I know I should be independent but..HELLO staying alone at home until 2am++ (if she's working night shift)?? I'm not brave for that!

Normally, my other sisters will crash at our house to accompany us but they're not going to this time coz my my 1st bro-in-law will be working from home and the 2nd had taken leave, so of course they'll be much comfy at their own house.

I don't have a prob with that. I can manage (I think).

And having a boyfriend who lives soo far away (in KL) is sooo not helping! I wish he will come back & forth to accompany me here, but no high hopes for that though. T_T

But but, I do have a few plans up in my sleeves. Some of them are:

Get a new haircut - which had been postponed multiple times!
Go for a jog - with Intan or Afidah, but if they're not available, go alone.
Go to Subang Parade to buy aerobic or dancing DVDs - coz I'll be all alone, there's no shame for that.
Spring cleaning the whole house - I'll do that next week, coz when they're home, the house will be all shiny and clean ;)
Do the laundry - seriously.

Yeap, and say goodbye to home-cooked meal (coz I couldn't be bothered to cook) and hello to tapau-ing and delivery and drive thru! :D

And I'll miss my parents especially Mama this whole week. Hope they have a lot of fun and rest over there.

Please pray for their safety departure and arrival. Amin :)

Ooohh, I hear wedding bells!

2010-05-30T00:29:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my ex-housemate and my forever friend, Zainah Idris aka Ena.

2 years ago, I've written something about her in this blog. To refresh your memory or if you've missed it, please click this link:

http://sarahabdullah.blogspot.com/2008/05/zainah-idris.html

Minggu lepas (21 Mei), dia telah sah menjadi seorang isteri. Seorang isteri kepada boyfriendnya sejak kami di Semester 1.

Betul la kata orang, 'putus hubungan beribu kali pun, tapi kalau benar ada jodoh takkan ke mana.'

I truly believe that now.

This is so surreal. Don't get me wrong, but I just can't believe it.

Ena..Ena..Ena. Sudah kahwin dia. Wow, too much memory that we've shared together. Too much.

She was the original 5-4-6 (July 2005).

Being a girl who had just left high school and just started to experience real independent life, we always ask each other this question:

"Agak-agak siapa antara kita akan kahwin dulu ye?"

I was 17 (ikut bulan), I will shriek with embarrassment when they ask me that question. For me, it was too soon for them to pop 'that' question.

Sometimes we will hang out at the balcony facing the hills yang belum digondol that time, while eating jambu air that ema brought from her house, and we will throw random guess who will get married first.

Among the favorite nominees were Ema (considering she's older), Fatin (coz she said she wanna get married at 23) and ME (that time my target is 24 yrs). Haha because I didn't see MY future clearly yet, and coz my sisters got married when they're 24 as well. Shame to me, I know.

But, who would have guessed that among us 8, Ena will be the first.

Ena yang terpaling kuat tidur and kuat makan tu, getting married with her boyfriend / bestfriend.

How sweet. Love is definitely sweet!

I'm so happy for her :) Happy sampai pergi cari her wedding present pun extremely happy. Happy sampai wrap her present pun extra slow coz I want it to look perfect! Although it's small.

Today (May 30th), me, Anas and a bunch of our Diploma classmates will make Ulu Yam too crowded coz we're attending her wedding reception.

God knows where's the dewan. I've tried Google Map but to no avail, no luck at all.

Conclusion is, BANTAI SAJE. InsyaAllah, jumpa la.

PICTURES FROM 2005

Dining hall; waiting for our burger! Haha

Yess, we love sandwiches!

She posed like that knowing I wanna snap her pics!

Alhamdulillah :D

So,

Selamat Pengantin Baru Dak Ina and Wan!

Moga kekal bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat.

Congratulations :D

Believe.

2010-05-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

Kalau rezeki itu ditakdirkan untuk kita, akan ia melekatlah pada kita.

Percaya itu sudah cukup.

Tak perlu nak bertanding siapa yang lagi hebat.

Orang yang dilihat tersenyum manis, duk menggoyang kaki itu, mungkin lagi besar dan hebat masalah menimpa.

Tiada orang tahu. Tiada orang ambil peduli.

Jadi kesimpulannya?

DO NOT JUDGE ME.

Great times are meant to be shared.

2010-05-20T00:46:00.004+08:00

Looks like I seem to be quite lost for words lately I don't know why. But these things happen once in a while, right?

So I don't want to say much but our trip to Genting the other day was really really FUN. We had a splendid time :)

10052010

Let's do that again! To other venues, of course :D

(Just a few pictures, for the memory. Others are not for public viewing.) :P

2010-05-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

And, my wish came TRUE! :))))

(refer to my previous post)

2010-05-07T20:51:00.001+08:00

Rongak.

2010-05-05T23:36:00.003+08:00

This is Ain, Lina's lil sis.

Sangat daring budak ni.

She always ask me, "Bila Taya nak kahwin dengan Uncle Anas?"

*gelak besar*

Auww rindu zaman gigi rongak dulu. I still remember when either me or Dee had a missing tooth, my other siblings will say, "Gigi rongak, syoookkkk!" (In loghat Tganu of course) :P

Now it's your turn, Ain :) She loves to smile that way, I know she's proud of her rongak-ness. She should be. Go on, rock that look Ain Batrisyia!

Go on, have your rest, Facebook.

2010-05-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

I hate being the only person who are left not knowing about certain details or updates about people.

Because I used to know everything. Seriously, EVERYTHING.

I guess that's the pros when you have a FB or any social networking sites, you will know and aware about other people's lives.

Chatting with Pai was like a breath of fresh air! She informed me a few new updates about my friends and I suddenly realized that I am totally unaware about it.

And they didn't even crossed my mind since the day I have decided to give my FB a rest.

Nobody really knows the real reason why I did that to my FB.

Heck, I don't even know my OWN reason.

But I am sure there are one.

And that reason must be a powerful one to make me abandon my Sorority Life which I played religiously just to buy new outfits.

No more updates about my friends and families.

No more viewing my tagged photos.

And I have taken such a great risk for my actions because I know there are certain people who thought they have been blocked.

*laughs* I won't block you, unless you gave me a reason to do that to you.

For the last time, I have my own reason and my FB will return from her holiday soon. (And yes, I purposely addressed my FB as a 'her'.)

Til then, follow me at http://twitter.com/sarahsegan

stick sticky stickers.

2010-05-01T01:00:00.003+08:00

THANKS GIRLS!

You are always there for me. Appreciate it loads.

I love you all sangat sangat sangat tau!

Please stick with me. *okay, cue background lagu I'm Sticking With You - OST Juno :P*

Aku tahu yang Amai tahu lagu tu :D :D

Attention.

2010-04-26T00:46:00.004+08:00

I NEED GIRLS DAY OUT.

I NEED LEPAK SESSIONS WITH THE GIRLS.

I NEED SOME 'GIRLS-ONLY-ZONE'

I NEED SOME ADVICE.

I NEED TO LET ALL OF THIS OUT OF MY CHEST.

and again,

I NEED GIRLS DAY OUT.

WITHOUT ALL OF OUR BOYFRIENDS OR SCANDALS ETC.

(no offence to the boyfriends or scandals etc)

SERIOUSLY IN NEED ALL OF THAT.

Anyone up for it???

(att: besties and kesayangans)

Percayalah.

2010-04-24T17:19:00.003+08:00

Hm.

Tiada apa yang lebih penting untuk diharapkan, cuma aku berdoa sangat moga dijauhkan segala kesukaran dalam hidup dan kelemahan dalam hati.

Memang.

Macam-macam dugaan yang menimpa sekarang ni.

Banyak sungguh masalah yang datang.

Pilihan yang ada kat depan mata, susah betul nak memilih.

Aku nak melangkah ke tahap seterusnya, tapi tak tahu lah. Masih belum bersedia.

Banyak perkara yang perlu ditimbang baik buruk dulu.

Tak mahu esok-esok akan menyesal, bukan?

InsyaAllah, segala yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.

Why must it become harder and harder?

2010-04-22T17:14:00.006+08:00

“Never ruin an apology with an excuse.”

- Kimberly Johnson

Because frankly, I don't need excuses. I only need the TRUTH.

Still hot for an ancient old lady :P

2010-04-19T20:19:00.005+08:00

While I was waiting for my niece, Lina, outside of her school which used to be my primary school as well, I suddenly remember that I welcomed Lina into my life when I was in Standard 5.

Can you believe it? I have shouldered this 'makcik' role when I was 11 years old.

At that age, although I didn't have the courage to carry her around, but me and my sister was the one who took care of her when she was little.

We used to sit beside Lina's baby cot and play 'Speed' game and we would restrain ourselves from screaming 'Speed' when we were winning, so that we won't disturb Lina's peaceful nap.

During the weekends, we will be missing her so much until my sister will drove to her house just to play with her. Or sometimes we took her out to shopping mall.

And we will make a huge detour just to avoid McDonald's because whenever Lina caught a glimpse of McD, she will say 'Arnold, Arnold' and won't stop until we buy her fries.

That was 12 years ago. Lina is in Standard 6 now. OMG, I'm ancient!

She will sit for her UPSR examination in a few months time, then off she go to secondary school.

Now, she is the one who will accompany me to Subang Parade when I'm bored, or be my driving partner when I need to drive to the shop to buy some groceries.

I can hear her shout 'Tayaaaa!' when she saw me waiting outside her school. Then we walk back home together and Lina excitedly told me about her day. She grew so fast!

She's active in school, and is a great runner. She was in Top 10 for her 'Merentas Desa'. Her skin is few shades darker now due to her school activities. Dee calls her 'Burned Chocolate Brownie'. Jahat kan? I know. But somehow, Lina loves that nickname. Haha.

As of 2010, I now have 6 nieces and 3 nephews. And I love all of them so much.

Frankly, I miss having a baby around the house. I love their smell. Who's baby is it gonna be next? Or is it gonna be mine?

HAHA. Just kidding!

Lina and Dee, taken last year.

Lina, when she was 8 years old.

Make it go away. Shuuuhh!

2010-04-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

Bila lah aku ni nak jadi penyabar macam dia?

Haih. Jahat sangatlah budak Sarah nih.

There's a lot of things that I can learn from him, but somehow I failed miserably in learning anything.

I don't want to give the 'It's that time of the month' type of excuse but I hate myself for continuously throwing tantrums at him.

He don't deserve it.

I need to change. For the better.

Have to control this temper. Wait, scratch that. Not only control, but to get RID of it, ALL of it.

Have to, have to, have to.

MasyaAllah, Sarah.

Selawat banyak-banyak, istighfar selalu.

InsyaAllah.

Waste of time.

2010-04-12T18:47:00.003+08:00

What's the point of missing you if I receive nothing in return?

Friends are flowers in the garden of life.

2010-04-12T18:08:00.005+08:00

5 Azam 2004 Reunion.

10th April 2010, 8pm.

Flaming Steamboat Restaurant, Sunway.

After leaving SMKSJ for 6 years, this is what we've become.

Although not all could come that day, but we still had a wonderful time with our classmates. We shared a lot of sweet sweet and bitter memories back in 2004, and as everyone took their own path after high school, this is the first time we met since we bid our farewell.

And this is what we used to look back then :)

“No road is long with good company.”

Four days.

2010-03-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

Four days.

I know it's a short period of time; but it's long enough for me.

I can deal with not seeing him for four days or maybe longer.

But I can't deal with the lack of communication between us.

Texting only a couple of times for a whole day is such a torture.

I know this is one of the obstacles of being apart from one another, and I know I should be strong.

I know the situation could be much more complicated than this in the future, and I know I should prepare myself.

Actually,

I am prepared. I am strong. I can handle this long distance.

But I can't help myself from feeling so restless, worried, weak, emotional and missing him so much.

I don't know how you people out there could stand being in the different country or continent from your loved ones.

But I do know, after going through all of this, I salute you :) Seriously.

Four days should be a piece of cake for me.

A day had passed; and although up until now I don't know what will happen for the next three days, but I do know whatever happens I am still here waiting for you to come back home.

Be safe. Will always pray for you :)

Dean. List. Award.

2010-03-25T16:18:00.002+08:00

I know you guys mean well when you popped me that question.

I know you guys thought I get that 'title' like I did last time.

But looking at my performance previously, I don't deserve to get it, you know.

Compare to all of you who have worked so hard, I am not like you.

I procrastinate a lot and at the end I did everything the simplest I can just to finish the thing.

But I accept the result as positively as I can, because to me, it's not too bad.

I'm still thankful with it.

I'm happy with your achievement, seriously I do.

But different people keep on asking me the same question, I just can't take it anymore.

So let me clear the air once and for all...

AKU TAK DAPAT ANUGERAH DEKAN LAST SEMESTER.

So stop asking me if I'm going to the ceremony tomorrow and what will I wear.

Because, of course, I'm not going kan.

But I am seriously happy with you all, my classmates. Congratulations.

Sarah the ex-intern.

2010-03-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

Yesterday (technically) was the end of my four-month internship.

The End. Finish. Fin. Selesai.

As much as I know I should have been happy and overjoyed, but somehow, I feel nothing.

Of course I'm relieved for it to be done successfully (to me), but I feel average.

I was like,

"Yep, last day..." *look around awkwardly* *senyum senget*

That was my dialogue when people came up to me and say, "Hey, last day kan?"

However, I've been waiting eagerly for that finito moment to arrive. I know I'll miss the environment, and also (some of) the people there, and of course, the workloads as well.

I will be super happy if they assign something for me. Rather than sitting in office, trying to figure out what should I do, and sitting restlessly for not having any work while others are busy finishing theirs.

So yes, I was happy to be busy. At least I know, I was needed there.

I was a bit in awe because I could not believe that it had actually over.

Hey, no longer an attachment. I'm attach free! :D

No longer people place you at the bottom level just because you're an intern.

And we (the interns) get that a lot.

After this,

No more calling the office at 10.30pm - 11pm to check for assignments and will go like "Oh damn! Takde assignment!"
No more coming in the office fearing this one particular lady to scold me for coming in late with her usual line "You're an intern. You must come in at 9am." Fish!
No more briefing the O.C (officer-in-charge) and got worried if he/she ask for more information which I don't have.
No more have to wait for hours to see the status of my story to 'To Clear'.
No more have to experience almost heart attack when they shouted 'SARAH!' which was a sign of them editing my story and there's something they did not understand.

and yada yada yada.

But I'll miss the people most. There's a few people which I really really enjoy and appreciate the friendship :) Hope they feel the same way too.

Anyways, I'll be focusing on finishing my report and of course, have to mengadap a pile of Star newspapers because I want to cut out all of my articles. For my own personal collection.

And most importantly, I will have a lot of time up in my sleeves after this (which I lurve).

And it's time for me to master those skills which I said I need to master.

Yeah, you can do this :D

I got my head and my heart on the dancefloor.

2010-03-16T23:10:00.005+08:00

Dee dah upload the Terengganu pictures.
Go and check it out at my FB okay, FRIENDS!

My tummy is not in the greatest condition today. Somehow, my tummy could not behave well and it's very annoying!
Mahu baring saja, so that the pain could go away.

One day down, and seriously today I feel like the clock ticking so s l o w l y ...
Super mengantuk, super lazy and super sakit perut. Major perfect combination.
Uu yeah.

I think I need to create my own checklist.
List of stuff to do during my era to become the greatest penanam anggur ever born!
HAHAHA.
Lots of ideas in my mind but suddenly reality strikes - whether it's a good idea or will my parents give their full blessing with my plans.
Haih, this is the sucky part when you are still under jagaan your own parents.

But I still wanna make sure ALL my plans to work! (if not all, then some of it la)
And most importantly, of course, my major mission during my so-called era is:

To master all important skills which is needed for me to master

And no, you don't need to know about those skills. Unless you beg for it. Hehe.

Ops, too bad I changed my mind.

Beg til you drop but I ain't telling!! :P

Gah! I think I'm crazy. I blame it on the sugar.

H untuk Home.

2010-03-16T00:49:00.004+08:00

I'M HOMEEEE!!!

Gosh. Feels so good to be home.
But I do miss Terengganu so much. Although I hate the painfully hot weather, but thank God for the 24-hour-aircond-terpasang at our hotel/apartment room, I don't really experience the sweaty badan melekit condition :) me like.

Lazy and not in the story telling mood about the trip, but whatever it is, I enjoyed myself at the family gathering last Saturday (13th Mar).

You can view the pictures later in my FB when my 2 sisters dah upload (which is God knows when)
:P

Need to do some research bout my tomorrow's assignment then I wanna go to zzz.
(sangat sangat sangat sangat malas nak kerjaaaaaaaaaa!)
Argh. In denial mode. Can't believe my 5 days off is overrrrr. Cis burger.

It's okay.
Countdown: Exactly 9 more days :))

Dating dengan penyu ;P

2010-03-11T01:05:00.002+08:00

Today was somewhat a great day.
Greeted with a bundle of surprises.

Guess who pick me up from office today??
My Abang :D How shock I am seeing him. But of course, happy at the same time :D

(Jangan fikir bukan-bukan haa when I said 'My Abang'. It's my read Abang lar who lives in Kedah :P)

And there's another surprise as well.
Came in a huge package of grey and blue-ish. HAHA.

Excited but somehow, I feel nothing.

Well anyways, my five-day-off starts tomorrow and I am super excited!
Wait for me oh holiday.

I'm gonna have all the fun I can get tomorrow and yes, I'll miss YOU!

Then on Friday, off I go back to Terengganu with Dee.
Flight is at 2pm. Anyone care to hantar me and wave at me at the 'anjung tinjau'?
Ouch ouch, haha.

And will be back to beloved Subang Jaya on Monday morning. InsyaAllah.

Please pray for me, my siblings and my parents.
May all of us will have a safe journey :) Amin.

As of now, I need to pack my bag as I'm passing all my luggage to my parents who will go back Terengganu tomorrow morning :)
And FYI, I seriously sangat yang amat BENCI packing.

*looking at the empty luggage placed at the corner of my room*

Gosh. I have to start packing now. Have to, have to.
Gtg darls. See you Monday.

and then, comes March :)

2010-03-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's March already. I seriously could not believe it. I have been interning at The Star for 3 months already.

And I know I keep on saying at Sharon that I don't want to count the days but I really wanna share this fact:

ANOTHER 2 WEEKS TO WRAP UP MY INTERNSHIP!

How pleasant that feeling is.

When you don't really take note when you will be done with it but then you suddenly realized that this is your final month there!

I still remember on December when I was browsing through the roster, I didn't even go to the February part because it just felt so far awayyy.

Who would have thought..FEB DAH HABIS WEIII! :D

I have mixed feelings about this.

People always ask me,

"How do you find The Star?"

"Are you happy being there?"

"So do you want to work there?"

"You want to be a journalist after this?"

all those stuff lar.

To tell you the truth, I haven't thought about "What's next?" yet.

I just want to focus what I am doing now and when I'm finally done with this, then I think I will came up with something.

I'll think of something, I'm sure.

But one thing for sure,

I AM SOOO NOT READY TO FACE WORKING LIFE YET!

and I'm serious.

But nevermind, let's just wait and see, shall we?

I will always think positive and try my best. InsyaAllah.

Anyways, I am so thankful to have my intern friend Sharon with me. Maybe because we are the only two interns left, so every day we'll try our best not to left one another behind.

Just like today :)

Thank you Sharon Chew for willing to switch terminals with me although you have weather to do.

Thank you Sharon Chew for coming back to accompany me waiting for my dad although you can go home early, and have dinner early as well.

:)) Thank you!!

PS: I'm so glad that my February resolution sangat menjadi. No malas-malas mode to update blogggg :D